Cheater ; Phan ~ completed

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(Phil)

"I am your's." I whisper, tears streaming down my cheeks.

"No you aren't." He mutters. "Not anymore."

I don't share. And you're his now.

No.

"Yes."

He clearly marked you as his. And I'm not about to ruin that. How could I?

"Why are you being like this Dan? I'm trying to apologize."

"Key word. Trying."

"What is your deal?! I really don't know what else to do!"

"Nothing. Do nothing. Leave me be. I said we're over. I don't forgive you. You don't deserve it."

"Unlock the door."

"Why?"

"I want you to say it to my face."

"Fine."

Soon, the door swings open, and we're standing face to face.

"We are over. Whatever we had, you ruined it. I'm breaking up with you. Not because I don't love you.. but because I can't forgive something like that. Or, I don't want to. Not now. I think it's best we end it here. Maybe that's something I should've done a while ago. I don't know."

"So, that's it?" I ask softly.

"That's it." He nods, although I can see he hates to say it.

"Can I kiss you? Just this one last time?" I ask, his watery brown eyes meeting mine.

"This last time." He whispers, tears building in his eyes.

So I did, I leaned in, cupping his cheek and kissing those soft lips. I took a step closer to him as he pulls me in. My tears continue to fall as I try to bottle up this feeling, as I might never feel it again. He is perfect. But in this moment, he's broken, shattered. It's all my fault. But so am I.. And I guess that's my fault too.

I wish that I was the one to fix him. But he can't forgive me, And I can't forgive myself.

I'm in love with him. But I made one fatal mistake, and killed what we had.

Maybe, one day, I'll hold him close, and it will be alright again. Even just for a moment. But for now, it's best we go back to the days we were only dreaming of this possibility. Or, pretending it never happened.

Before I've had enough, he pulls away, leaning his head against mine. "Dan.."

"Phil." He says brokenly. "I love you."

"I love you too." I whisper. "I'm in love with you."

I wish I hadn't done this, because little do you know, Dan... I have a ring, in a blue velvet box, in a drawer in my room. I would've married you. I still will. Just say the word, and I will.

"I'm in love with you too. I guess that's a shame, then." He mumbles, pulling away.

"It is." I say, wiping my eyes and backing up, turning and walking to my room.

I hear his door close, and quiet sobs ring through the house. I sit on my bed, staring up at the ceiling in regret.

It's something I can never take back. And maybe, Dan might be someone I'll never get back.

I roll over, opening the bedside table drawer and finding the box. I open it, staring down at the ring.

A drunken mistake can ruin a lifetime of plans. And that's just what it did.

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