Cheater ; Phan ~ completed

11

(Dan)

"I should go. It's late."

"You can stay the night if you'd like."

"It's alright."

"Okay, well, take care of yourself, Dan. Just let me know if you need anything."

"I will. Thanks Louise, this really helped."

"Of course." 

-

I walk back into my room, getting back into pajamas and sitting in bed again.

It seems like I've been sitting in this bed for hours. Staring up at the ceiling in the darkness. 

My mind is buzzing, and I can't stop thinking, or calm my mind down enough to rest. 

I try watching some show, or listening to music. Somehow it all goes back to him. 

I can't get him off my mind. 

Or, I can't get the thought of him with someone else off my mind. 

But then, behind it all.. I know, I just need him. Nothing else is helping.

But, at the same time, that might not help either, because he is the problem. 

I don't know what I'm gonna do if we don't figure this out.

And I know, its my fault, cause I broke up with him, but I have a good reason.

But, I can't sit here and pretend like I don't love him. 

Because I do, and just sitting here in an empty bed is killing me. 

I don't realize just how much this is effecting me until I'm curled up on my side, sobbing into a pillow. 

By the time my tears come to a stopping point, its nearly two thirty in the morning. 

I can't stand this empty bed. 

So I sit up, unlocking my phone. I stare down at Phil's contact, typing a text. 

To: Phil 

You up?-

I instantly delete it, shaking my head.

Don't embarrass yourself, Dan. 

But.. I'm not going to be able to sleep alone tonight. 

Maybe.. I should just, go see if he's up?

So I do. 

I walk over to his door, opening it quietly. 

My heart is racing. 

This was a bad idea. Wasn't it? 

Fuck it. I'm already in his damn room. 

He turns over, looking at me with teary eyes. I don't speak, out of simply being too shocked to say anything. I simply walk over to the bed and lay down. 

He looks over at me, confused. "Dan?" He whispers, voice breaking. I wrap my arms around him, burying my face in his chest. "Oh." 

That's when the tears start. They pour from my eyes and somehow, I know they won't be stopping any time soon. And I start to think they might never stop. 

Soon enough, I'm full on sobbing, clinging onto him like it's all I've got left. And maybe, he is. 

"Oh baby.." He whispers, pulling me closer. "I'm so sorry, Dan." I attempt to begin a sentence, but it comes out all wrong, me choking on my words and only crying harder. "It'll all work out, Bear. Calm down.." 

(485)

A/N- double update because last chapter was short as hell 

-M