Anime Oneshots

Smile Magic (Ittoki x Reader)

Author's Warning: Hey guys! You're probably wondering why there's a warning instead of a note. This chapter contains depressing topics and most likely trigger stuff. Like, really depressing topics. So if you're not comfortable with anything depressing, fear not, there is another chapter waiting for you. Also this chapter is insanely long. Okie dokie, time for me to go. See you in the next chapter! (｀・ω・')
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The sun was shining bright as I opened my window. I could get all the fresh air I wanted, but I wouldn't feel better. I looked in the mirror. A pale human with messy hair and dark black circles under their eyes stared back with a blank expression. I glanced at the time: twelve o'clock. Ittoki is supposed to come visit sometime today, but it's not surprising if he's late because of his friends. Especially that Haruka girl. He's had his eyes on her since she was accepted into Saotome, the same school he goes to. If only he knew my feelings for him. No. Maybe it's best that I'm left alone. Ittoki and I met in my first year in high school, but we only knew each other for a year before he transferred to Saotome. Ever since then, my life's been a disaster zone. My grades have hit rock bottom, I hardly get any sleep anymore, and I either starve myself or stress eat. I'm a mistake just waiting to be erased. What I don't understand is why I'm so depressed. I have friends, both of my parents are happily under the same roof, I actually have a bed to sleep in, so why am I so depressed? The worst part is that I keep it bottled up inside. While on the inside I feel like I'm gonna snap, I'm good at hiding my feelings behind a resonable smile. Before I could think anymore, a knock on the door brought me to the harsh reality.

"Hey!" Ittoki greeted me when I opened the door. There was a basket of something in his hands.

"You brought a gift?" I asked. I'm actually curious to see what it is.

"Ta da! I brought chocolate. You still like chocolate, right?" I nodded happily and took a piece. "So, what should we do?" He asked.

"Um...watch a movie?" Ittoki nodded, his radiant smile shining brighter than ever. I went to my room to retrieve some movies. Usually, I like to watch a ton of movies in my room, so that's where I stored them.

"Y'know," Ittoki's voice suddenly spoke from the living room, "Saotome's a really cool place. I'm already apart of this idol group called St☆rish, and we're already working on our first live. Our composer is this cool girl named Haruka. I told you about her right?" My stomach churned at the sound of her name. "We met when she was trying to take the entrance exam to go my school. Not too long ago, we wrote a song together for a project. She composed it, and I wrote the lyrics. We're like the perfect duo!" I stayed silent. I snapped. I pulled out a knife from a secret drawer in my dresser. I was done with life.

"Is that so? W-well, I'm glad you two are...getting along so well." My voice trembled.

"Hm? Are you okay?" Ittoki asked. I refused to answer. Am I really going to end myself? Is it worth it? Like the fool that I am, I stood in the same spot looking at the floor. I heard gentle footsteps coming close to my room and my heart nearly stopped. "W-what are you doing?" I froze where I was with my eyes squeezed shut and on the verge of breaking down.

"Ittoki, leave me alone," I stepped away from him, his face still horrified. Suddenly he stepped towards me.

"Are you okay?" His eyes showed great fear. I dropped the knife.

"Yeah. I'm fine." I closed my eyes and put on a fake smile. His expression changed. He grabbed my wrists, and the sleeves I was wearing ruffled to reveal multiple cuts on both of my arms. I averted his gaze and blinked back burning tears. Ittoki suddenly pulled me into his arms. "What are you doing?"