Sky & HE★VENS

Envy

How many times had she felt her heart sank that day? Only a few minutes had passed since noon and her day had already been crushed multiple times over. Her mouth closed as she realized the words in her throat wouldn't dare to come out in a time like this.

She looked up at his fetures. He's still wearing the same expression as before. A dishonest smile. She could tell he was waiting for her to respond. Either with anger, hurt or acceptance. She knows he wanted her to react with the first two options, but she also knows that he knows she couldn't. That's when it hit her.

He wants me to hate him...

He had been figured out, as usual. Watching her eyes widen once again, he lost all hope of getting rid of the heavy guilt he felt. Even after going through everything, he still felt as though he was still in square one. As if they were still strangers coincidentally running into each other. Thinking back several years, they only became friends because Kira introduced them to one another. He wondered what would things have been like if he didn't. He definitely wouldn't be in this situation. He wouldn't have been able to dedicate his life to music as much as he does now. He would be nothing more than a face. An image for people to look at and take advantage of. In other words, he'd still be a slut.

In a short while, she noticed his expression changing. Not much could be observed, but she could clearly see how sad his eyes are. Almost as if he was... Begging? "Eiichi..." He took a step forward. She called him again and he took another. The way he walked reminded her of a puppet being dragged by its master. When he was right infront of her, she called for him one more time and he bent down on both knees.

He was helpless. Hopeless. Every inch felt like a mile and with every mile, the worse he feels. Something... Someone who's very important to you. They're just in front of you. Stretch out your hand and you can touch them easily. But you can't reach them. No matter how hard you try, you just can't.

♪'Haato no door no kii wa doko ni aru? Where is ai?'♪
((♪'Where is the key to the heart's Door? Where is the love?'♪))

♪'Egoisuto ni breakin' sarakedashita honnou'♪
((♪'Breakin' our egos and exposing our instinct'♪))

♪'Chikatte yaru, nani yori mo tsuyoi LOVE sa'♪
((♪'I swear I will love more strongly than anything'♪))

♪'Kakusu na kako no kizuato wo'♪
((♪'Don't hide the scars from your past'♪))

♪'Kaihou sa...'♪
((♪'I'll release you...'♪))

♪'Mune no kanashimi
Kakusu mono janai'♪
((♪'The sorrow in your chest
Is not something to hide'♪))

Those lyrics he had sang now had no meaning in them. It felt empty. Why? He had felt so lively when singing. He had everything he wanted now, so why is everything still so... so...

She frowned as she watched him struggle to restrain himself. Slowly, she pushed herself off the bed and sat in front of him, a hand on his shoulder. "Eiichi?" He stiffened. Well, at least she knew he was listening. "You look... scared..."

Scared? Oh no, he was far from that. He's terrified of what's to come. When you have nothing more to gain, all you can do is lose. And he doesn't want that. He doesn't want to lose anything. He couldn't bare the thought that, with just a snap of two fingers, everything could be taken away. A very small part of him prayed that his father wouldn't do such a thing, but he knew better. He wasn't ready to let go for a third time.

He snapped his head up when something cold touched his cheek. Her palm had rested there and the metal rims of the ring made a chill run down his spine. He peered at her face. She flushed upon being looked at, but she didn't pull away. His own hand went up and held hers, evelopping the ring. Taking her other hand, he brought them together and kissed them. For a moment, he had forgotten everything he thought about.