Not Always Glamorous

Chapter 28: The MidSummer Night's Dance

Chapter 28: The Midsummer Night's Dance

     We pull into the parking lot after jamming to music on the ride up. The place was awesome! The cool grass was the dance floor, and there were bright, soft, white lights strung everywhere above the crowds and in the trees. It was magical and we were all wonderstruck, especially Ms. Castillo, Taylor, and I.Us girls jump out of the car and, as we do, the boys pull up. But they have Ryan Dew, the Grammy Complaint Hotline guy! "Hey, Hon!" I greeted Harry, jumping into his arms. "Do you know what Ryan's doing here?" I ask him. Harry looks confused. "Didn't Auri tell you?" he asks before walking over to Liam. Ms. Castillo?

     I walk over to her and she was laughing with none other than Ryan Dew! I tap on her shoulder and she excuses herself and walks with me. 'So...make a new 'friend'" I ask her smiling. She blushes in embarrassment.

     She pulls Ryan to her side. "Meet Ryan...my, um,, new boyfriend." she says, saying the last part softly. Oh my God! How long have I known about this?! When she was looking for the perfect dress...she was doing it for Ryan. When she was twirling when she finally found that dress...was she imaging herself twirling in it...with Ryan? Was she dreaming of swaying slowly so deeply in love, the romantic strung lights everywhere, dazing into each other's eyes?

     I don't know what else to do. I just hug her. She was pretty startled, since I hugged her so fast, but it didn't need an explanation. She hugged me back and I knew that she understood everything. Absolutely everything that I couldn't put to words. "Thank you." she whispers. I hug her tighter. Not "suffocation" tighter, just faintly tighter, but not so faintly she couldn't feel it. She understood.

     And that's one of the many, many, many, MANY reasons and things I love about her. She understands everything, everything you can't explain the way you want to. I would never...i WILL never let her go. I will never let this amazing woman out of my life again. Ever. She is so special to me!

     Anyway, we finally separated and I winked to her. She smiled back and went back to laughing with Ryan. This place was magical, seriously magical. I got Taylor, Perrie, and grabbed Ms. Castillo, once again ruining her alone time with Ryan. So anyway, I told them this dance was no-shoe worthy. We all smugly smiled and kicked off our heels which landed in the car and ran back to the dance floor. I was dancing with Harry, but I spotted Liam looking at his watch all alone.

     I walk over to him. "Hey, Liam. I saw you were alone and I cam to tell you...not to hurt you but...i think you should date someone. I mean, you can't love me forever-especially since I'm getting married!" I told him. He put his hand up to stop me. "I know. I'm waiting for her." he replied with a straight face. "Oh, okay then! Have fun!" I say and run off waving to him. I meet Harry throwing away a plastic cup. A slow song and I lead Harry to the dance floor. He puts his arms around my waist and I put mine around his neck.

     "You look beautiful tonight, Love." he compliments me. "And you look like a prince." I reply and he twirls me. I spn twice and fall back into his arms. "So why do you love Auri so much? Not that she’s not great, but...why?" Harry asks me as I lean against him and he hugs me from behind me. We go from side to side, from front to back like that. "I don't know. No, I do know. She understands me and I can tell her anything and she makes me so happy and I...just love her so much. I don't ever want to lose her again." I tell him turning around and resting my head on his shoulder.

     I see Ms. Castillo dancing with Ryan and he leaned over and kissed her. Their first kiss! I take a mental picture. I have a confession, but am disgusted by it and with myself. Ever since I found out that they were dating, I felt a complicated feeling. Like nothing would never be the same, and I wanted everything to stay the same. A little piece of me is happy, but the rest is sad. Nothing will ever be the same again. I thought to myself and shed a small tear.

     Ms. Castillo was so happy, but...it didn't feel right. I felt I wouldn't be Ms. Castillo's only best friend anymore.  Ms. Castillo was... she was amazing. All I can say is...Ryan is lucky to have her. I prayed to God everything would be okay, but I really wasn't sure if it was going to be. I sighed. I don't even know what to do anymore. I wipe my tear away and she spots me. She frowns and does the same as me and puts her head on Ryan's shoulder. What happened? she mouthed. I didn't want to tell her, but I knew I had to. I will tell you at the hotel. I mouth back, sniffle, and smile. She smiles sympathetically back and goes back to slow dancing with Ryan. I tried to forget it.

    I was 75% successful. I forget about it sometimes, other times I felt like crying. I decided to perform, since that always (mostly) distracts me. I grab Ms. Castillo, Liam, his date, Niall, Taylor, Harry.. but I debated whether to take Ryan. It was the right thing to do, so I invited him and faked a smile, trying to make my smile stay a smile and not curve to a frown. It took everything in me to hold back the tars, the feel of needing to cry. We go on stage and, since they were doing karaoke, I decided to do one of my favorite old-Taylor songs...Last Kiss. I made sure everyone knew the song and, of course, if they knew ME, they knew the song. So I start.

     I still the remember the look on your face, lit through the darkness at 1: 58, the words that you whispered, just for us to know, you told me you loved me, so why did you go? Away." I sang. Taylor looked at me and smiled. "I do recall now the smell of the rain, fresh off the pavement, I ran off the plane, That July ninth, the beat of your heart, it jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms." Taylor finishes with overwhelming emotion I couldn't help it. A tear slid down my cheek.

     "But now I'll go sit on the floor, wearing your clothes, all that I know is, I don't know how to be something you miss, I never thought that we'd have a last kiss, Never imagined it'd end like this, Your name, forever the name on my lips." we all sang the chorus. I shed another tear and Ms. Castillo walked over and put her arm around my shoulder and squeezed it. "I do remember the swing in your step, the life of the party, you're showing off again,  And I roll my eyes then, you pull me in, I'm not much for dancing, but for you I did." Ms Castillo sang into her microphone.

     I hugged her back and cried into her shoulder. The crowd yelled my name, not in a mean way, in an encouraging way. A little girl in the front said "I love you." (and who knows what a little girl was doing there, but whatever.) I look at her and I whisper "thank you" to her. I wipe my face as Perrie sings the next verse. Then we all sang the chorus again.

     Then Taylor, Ms. Castillo, Perrie and I (all the girls) sing the bridge. "So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep, and I feel you forget me like  used to feel you breathe, And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are, hope it's nice where you are.." we finished. Ms. Castillo and I look at each other and i see a tear running down her cheek. I give her a hug before the chorus starts again. "You mean so much to me, Ms. Castillo. I can tell you anything and that means the world to me you are here." I whisper. "Me too." she replies. I hug her tighter and she sobs into my shoulder. We quickly reform for the chorus.

     We finish the chorus." Just like our last kiss..." Liam sings. "Forever the name on my lips..." Harry continues. "Forever the name on my lips..." Zayn sings next. "Just like our last..." Niall ends. The crowd goes wild and there are even more flashing lights than during the performance, which is odd. Usually the paps like the action shots. Anyway, we all did a group hug. "Thank you," I whisper to Ms. Castillo. "For being my human tissue." I finish giggling. We were both sobbing onstage, but I couldn't help but giggle. She smiles a genuine Ms. Castillo smile and I smile back before hugging her again and we all walk offstage.