The Last Light

Make You Fall (4)

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I could recognize that beautiful blonde hair from a mile away. It was Jeremy!

But the expression on his face was a new one for me. His face showed that he was angry but the expression was painful at the same time. 

"Jeremy… Hi!" I said trying to sound natural. That was when I had realized I was sitting a little too close to Dylan with his arm over my shoulder and my laptop on his lap. I had no idea how this happened.

"I guess this is a bad time. I’ll come later," He closed the door as he went away.

But I had seen the expression on his face as he had turned away. Turned away from me. Turned away from this scene.

The expression was one of betrayal, it was the one that tore me up inside I remembered the exact same expression on my the face of my parent’s when Kevin had told them he was going to move out to live with Rachel. I felt so horrible for a moment that I thought I was about to cry. I had this huge burden inside of me.

I collected my thoughts and went after him. He had reached the front door. It was like a race against time.

"Jeremy! Wait!"

He was out of our front door by now and　did not pay any attention to my desperate cries. I went after him and now we were both just standing there in my front garden. I could hear the crickets; I could see the moonlight making Jeremy’s beautiful hair shimmer and I could smell the scent of the flowers in my lawn. It could have been a perfect moment but sadly, it wasn’t. We were just standing there, staring blankly at each other.

"Jeremy listen…I can explain."

"Explain what?" He asked in a I-don’t-care tone. He couldn’t bear it for another second and he went away, kicking pebbles out of his way.

I was still standing there, motionless, trying to understand what had happened. I couldn’t move with the burden inside me. After what seemed like a decade, I started walking slowly towards my front door. I went up the stairs to my room. When I opened the door I realized Dylan was still here. I had forgotten about him.

What could I do now?

What would I say to him?

Then suddenly he got up.

"Listen, Alison, it’s getting late so I should probably be heading home now."

"Oh, Sure. Bye!"

"Bye! See you later,"

Well that was surprisingly easy.

He had made it easy for me. He must have known how torn up I felt inside. I sprawled on my bed and tears started dripping down my face. Before I knew it, I was howling. I did not realize when I fell asleep.

When I woke up in the morning, my eyes were puffy, my hair was a mess and I didn’t want to go to school.

I didn’t know how I would face Jeremy. I just wanted to sit in my bedroom and mourn for my terrible mistake. But Kevin suddenly entered my room and I had to get a hold of myself. But he could still see my terribly puffy eyes and messed up state.

"Whoa. What happened to you last night?" He asked a little shocked to see me like this.

I couldn’t find words. I couldn’t tell him exactly what happened. I pushed my thoughts for a good excuse for my terrible state.

"Nothing." I said at last. I was still trembling a little because he obviously knew I was trying to hide something. He was still at the door. He came inside and sat on the bed and motioned me to sit with him. Still trembling, I went over to sit next to him.

"Now, I want you to take a deep breath, and tell me everything that happened. I’m your brother. You can trust me, right?" He said in the most soothing way. But I was still unsure whether I should tell him or not. I guess he could help me out a little.

"Well, I was in my room, with Dylan. We were discussing our project. I had told Jeremy that I’d meet him today but I didn’t have anything to do yesterday so I called Dylan over. Then Jeremy popped up and he thought it was something else and now I feel terrible." I said in a hoarse voice and started crying a little. Kevin didn’t know what to do with me. He tried to comfort me.

"Now, come on. Misunderstandings like this happen all the time. You should just go and tell Jeremy the truth."

"I don’t think I’ll have the guts to do that." I said, sniffing and wiping my tears.　　　　　

"Oh come on I’m sure it’ll be okay…now you’re going to be late if you don’t hurry."

I didn’t feel like going to school so Kevin let me sleep and went out of my room. I was thinking about Jeremy and what had happened last night when I fell asleep. When I woke up I found out that the it was one in the afternoon. Without wasting anymore time I dragged myself to the bathroom, changed my clothes and went downstairs for breakfast.

Kevin smiled when he saw me coming down, surprisingly he didn’t mock me for sleeping late. He was very nice about it and made me breakfast. I didn’t feel like eating but I managed to eat a little of the pancakes. Though I didn’t eat much, Kevin didn’t say anything.

He left me alone knowing I wasn’t in a good mood. I blamed myself for what had happened. I should have told him about Dylan coming over and the change of plans but I was so stupid that I didn’t bother. I had this hollow feeling in my stomach and I managed to skip lunch.

I assumed that Kevin must have told mom that I wasn’t feeling well because she didn’t say anything. I didn’t do much all day, other think thinking about Jeremy. I decided I wouldn’t call him in case he might be in a bad mood. I spent all the day sitting on the couch next to Kevin flipping channels on TV.

Kevin was the only one watching anything I was just sitting there staring into space.

I was distracted. As I was just starting to take interest in some reality show which Kevin was watching, my phone rang. I rushed upstairs to check who it was hoping it would be Jeremy but it was Jennifer. I tried hard not to show my disappointment.

"Hey Alison? Why didn’t you come school today?" Jennifer asked sounding concerned. I decided I wouldn’t tell her about the incident and made an excuse instead.

"I stayed up late watching a movie with my brother so I overslept in the morning," I said trying to sound casual.

"Oh well I missed you at school day."

"Yeah I’m sorry I’ll be there tomorrow, what did I miss by the way?"

"Umm..well nothing much I’ll lend you my notes tomorrow, You’re coming right?"

"Yeah I am, hey did Jeremy come today?"

"No he didn’t. Hey did you guys plan it ?" She asked laughing.

"No we didn’t," I replied, forcing a fake laugh.

I fell into a deep conversation with Jennifer after that, she was proving to be a very good friend and was always there when I needed her. I felt bad about lying to her but I decided I’d tell her if anything else happened. She was just telling me about this cute guy, Jared who she was paired with and by the sound of her voice she seemed totally into him.

By dinner time I was in a good mood and joined in the conversation at the dinner table. After dinner Kevin and me decided to watch something on TV but because there wasn’t anything good on we soon got bored and went upstairs to sleep. I changed my clothes and fell onto my bed, but I couldn’t sleep, so I decided to work on the project.