Nobody's Hero

25: When They Call My Name

Sam's POV:

I ran in the bathroom once I realized what he was asking about. I cant believe I forgot he didn't know. I can't believe I forgot about them at all. I was just too disgusted by wearing that jacket that I completely forgot about my scars. I quickly grabbed my clothes to change into and began to get dressed. I pulled on a loose Batman sweater and black leggings. I then pulled on black socks that were low cut and my black batman pendent necklace. Afterwards I combed out my hair and straightened it. Lastly I put on some black lipstick and black eyeliner before adding some yellow eyeshadow. At this point I was trying to kill time, hoping jinxx wouldn't question me about what he saw.

I walked out into the lounge to see the other guys were awake. None of them questioned me about what happened. I could feel them staring at me from every direction and couldn't take it. I ran over to my bunk and pulled on my black vans before grabbing my black purse and shoving my phone, headphones, and wallet inside. I ran towards the door of the bus and only spoke once I opened it.

"I-I'll be back. Just need some air." I said before walking outside quickly and turning down the road. I was finally getting better. I hadn't cut since I met the guys, I was on the edge since last night after everything happened but withheld the urge. And now this, Jinxx just had to find out didn't he?

We had arrived here yesterday morning and are supposed to leave tomorrow morning considering the guys are playing tonight. I kept walking until I found what I was looking for. I had arrived at a small field lined with a thick forest. I ran towards the woods and didn't stop until I was surrounded by trees. I found a fairly tall tree and began to climb.

Before I knew it I was almost to the top of the tree and I stopped climbing once I found a small area where two branches intersected closely to the tree trunk. I leaned against the trunk and put my feet out in front of me, listening to the sounds around me. I listened the to nature for a while before turning music on softly from my phone and trying to calm down. After a while I fell asleep, still in the tree.

I don't know how long it was when I heard my ringtone go off. I jumped forward, waking up quickly once I heard the familiar ring and noticed it was no longer light outside. I saw that the person calling was jinxx and rushed to answer.

"WHERE THE HELL ARE TOU? ARE YOU OKAY? WHAT HAPPENED? JESUS CHRIST SAM IF YOU DONT ANSWER..." Jinxx began to yell from the other end of the phone.

"Hey, I'm okay! I fell asleep in a tree. I'm sorry for worrying you, I just needed some air, I'm on my way back now." I said quickly before hanging up. I climbed down as quickly as I could and began the walk beck to where the buses were parked.

Once I had arrived I went into the bvb bus to see jinxx pacing back and forth while all the guys were sitting and the sirens guys were also here.

"Sam! You're okay. Thank god. I don't know what I'd do if you were hurt. I was so worried." Jinxx said quickly, wrapping me in a hug. I hugged him back but not as tightly and looked around once he released me. I saw Kellin staring at jinxx with jealousy in his eyes but Jinxx didn't seem to notice.

"Why'd you run off?" Kellin asked, sitting on the couch next to me.
"You all look at me differently. I can see the pity in your eyes. I can't stand it. I know something terrible happened, and I'm terrified of it but I don't want you guys to pity  me for it. It's the worst thing you could do." I said quickly, pulling my knees up to my chest, hugging them tightly.

When I looked back up at the guys around me I saw it again. Once again, they were all looking at me that way. Every single one of them had pity in their eyes. Not concern, not respect, but pity.

With a sigh of annoyance I stood up and went into the bunk area, going to my bunk. I pulled out some more comfortable clothes before making my way into the bathroom. I locked the door behind me and placed all my things on the counter.

I began removing my makeup before pulling my hair back with a hair tie. I then changed into the clothes I had grabbed which consisted of a black long sleeve shirt, an oversized Metallica shirt which I pulled on over the long sleeve, black sweatpants, and black and white nightmare before Christmas fuzzy socks. Once i was done I looked at myself in the mirror. All I could see was a damaged, disgusting person, if I could even call her a person anymore.

Ever since I joined the guys I've been happy, until the event at the bar. My wrists have been itching, craving the blade since it happened and I woke up really early because I couldn't sleep. The makeup may have helped hide it but my eyes have huge bags and re somewhat bloodshot from lack of sleep.

I don't know how much longer I can take it.

I grabbed all my dirty clothes and left the bathroom before putting everything away, plugging my phone into its charger, and climbing into my bunk. I pulled the curtain shut and closed my eyes.

Before I could fall asleep I heard someone knock on the piece of wall next to my bunk. I pretended to be asleep as the curtain was pulled back and whoever was trying to talk to me looked into the bunk. I heard a sigh before the curtain was pulled close again and whoever it was walked away.

I guess you could say I wasn't in the mood for taking.

A/N:

I'm sorry! I know this chapter was pretty bad and it also took a while for me to update. Thanks for reading, check out my other story if you get a chance, it's completed...
Also, Asking Alexandria dropped their new album yesterday, go listen to it if you haven't yet.

Thanks!

I also feel the need to address this.....

Today is December 16, 2017. For those of you who haven't heard yet and care, this is news on the band Pierce the Veil. Earlier today the band posted an update regarding certain allegations. Mike Fuentes was accused of sexual misconduct and announced that he will be taking time away from the band. In the announcement Mike said that he is not taking the matter lightly and believes he never committed such a terrible act on anyone and if he has, he is sorry. He doesn't want the allegations to ruin the band's career or fan base and has decided to take some time off. The band has also dropped out of their upcoming European tour with All Time Low.