One more chance (Jungkook x reader)

Numb

His lips were on your own in an instant, it was hard to think, let alone move. He chewed on your bottom lip, making eye contact with you, encouraging you to move along with him.

His eyes were dark and pleading, almost begging you to move.

You shut your eyes and moved your lips a little, it was bliss in his arms.

You turned to mush in his strong arms, feeling guilty all of a sudden.

Images of Jungkook appeared on your mind, how his soft lips moulded into your own that night, and how he held your waist. How much you wanted to sink and drown into his arms, your lips locked onto his.

How he would hold you tightly with his head on your neck while he called you pet names. How would often tease you and call you names, just to see your irritated face...,

You pushed all the thoughts of Jungkook away from your head, you shouldn't be thinking about him while kissing Seokjin.

It was so wrong, yet his touch was so right.

You placed your palms on his chest, pushing him away. You gasped, finally feeling air hit your lungs. You felt his hands on our waist tense up, as he looked at you shocked. His shocked expression moulded into a somber and hurt look.

He loosened his arms around your waist and cleared his throat.

"Sorry, it wasn't right for me to do that."

You looked down on the floor, feeling warmth course through your chest and cheeks.

"It's alright, I'm sorry too." You replied, meeting his gaze.

You really shouldn't have kissed him back while thinking of Jungkook. It was wrong.

"You shouldn't be sorry."Jin stated , his voice hard and cold.

He sighed and held your hand,
"I was the one who kissed you without your consent.. I....I just couldn't handle the thought of you being bothered by Jungkook and that new girl."

He smiled shyly and grinned.

"I wanted to distract you. I don't want you to be troubled, you can use me as a distraction. I'm happy, just as long as you are willing."

You felt a knot on your throat.

You didn't want to use Kim Seokjin like that, it was selfish and inconsiderate to do so.

Thinking about someone else while being with another is unfair and just cruel.

Especially when you use your partner for your own needs and purposes without feeling the same way.

"I should be sorry." You started,

"I was the one who let you kiss me, even if I didn't feel the same way. I don't want to use you, even if you consent to it. I find it a cruel and inhumane way to forget and immerse in one's feelings. It is true that I was thinking of Jungkook while kissing you, I'm sorry. It was wrong of me to do that. I don't want to use you."

The moment you mentioned his friend his smile dropped a fraction from the corners of his mouth and he let go of your waist. He looked hurt, his gaze was muddled and he tensed his shoulders.

Yet, his eyes were begging, they looked like they were longing for something.

And you knew what that was.

You.

You felt numb on the inside, you felt cold and hot. You felt absolutely merciless, which you were. Your heart beat rapidly in your chest, threatening to burst out any moment.