Love,sex and Self-harm

I give up!

I couldn't take it any longer I reached for a box it was inside the draw covered in dust I opened it and removed the razor blade "Hello old friend" I whispered to it meaningfully before dragging the silver blade down my thighs, until the crimson drips ran down my legs It continued down to my knees and I grabbed some bandages and wound them round the cuts at that point i saw the door handle being jerked up and down and head harries perfect voice call " eponnie are you okay" i didn't know what to do i calmly called back "yer fine" whilst trying to wipe up any blood. I threw all my bandage packets in to the box and wrapped the blade in tissue before putting that in the box too, i then got dressed and pulled my hoody on. As i opened the door Harri was waiting "you alright?" he asked with suspicion in his voice "fine" i replayed there must have been guilt in my voice as he grabbed my arms and pulled my hoody off "what are you playing at" i said, i always knew my acting would come in handy "I'm i thought you did it again" he said, i felt horrible for lying but it was better he didn't know, "i'm going to take the spare bed tonight, my... back hurts" i said sheepishly before running off. Harrie knew i was lying

he always did, but he left me alone till morning it was late so i fell to sleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.