We don't belong here. (BVB)

Chapter two

I finally woke up and look at my phone to see the time, it read 2:30 school would end in 20 mins

I tried getting up But I fell down I had to get up.

Once I finally got up my legs where shaking from the cuts they hurt so bad. I made my way to the bathroom and started cleaning them up and made a run to the bus so I didn't miss it.

the bus dropped me off at the bus stop I ran to my house before Austin could follow me. I quietly walked in hoping my father wasn't home, thankfully he wasn't so I ran up to my room and reached under my bed to grab a small box and some cloths to change into after I got out of the bath. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I hated the way I look I wished every night I was skinny that I didn't have brown poofy hair, the only thing I liked about myself were my eyes my mom and dad both had brown eyes I had bright light blue eyes.

I peeled the bloody jeans off and took my sweat shirt off and seen all the bruises on my body I didn't care it just added to the ugliness. I grabbed the small black box and stepped into the warm water and opened the box grabbed my sharpest razor. I pushed it against my arms making a cut for every name.

First cut: slut

Second cut: whore

Third cut: emo slut

Forth cut: fat ass

Fifth cut: no one loves you

Sixth cut: no one cares

Seventh cut: just die

I repeated it on my other arm and sat in the tub and just let the pain consume me. The pain numbed me and took me away from this crazy planet. I almost slipped away till I herd my phone go off so I got out of the tub and put the razor back into my small box and got dressed in my dark grey ripped jeans and threw on a neon green tank top and a big black baggy shirt that was cut up every where.

I combed my hair threw on thick eyeliner, some black eye shadow and some mascara. I went to my room threw on a bunch of bracelets to cover my cuts.

I picked up my phone to read what my cuz texted me. It said

-Be there in 5 mins be ready 😊 happy birthday nia 🎉🎈 ~cuz -

I smiled and texted her back

-All ready just get ur ass here ~Shania -

I threw my phone on my bed and grabbed my iPod and headphones put them in my pocket and threw on my black boots.