Letters To Hoseok

Chapter One; Hoseok

Today was the day fan mail was delivered to the boys. It was given twice a month. The employees would search larger packages and envelopes for anything suspicious just in case. The standard size letters easily passed the inspection and thrown into a bin for the members of BTS to go through.

With fan meets and fan cafe, not as many letters were sent, but the members still had to go through a couple hundred. Since there were only seven of them, they tried to spend a small amount of time looking at each letter. Most of the letters were quickly skimmed, or thoroughly read if the message was short, and thrown in a pile to be recycled.

Throwing away letters was a sad part of the job, but BTS couldn't keep every single one. Some letters were lucky enough to be saved from the recycle pile. If a message happened to catch a members eye, they would do a more thorough read. However, after a few months, or perhaps when the next load of letters came, they were thrown out to be recycled.

Hoseok hardly ever kept fan letters. Next to Yoongi, he was the one who kept the least letters.  However, every delivery, the same blue envelope came, a different letter inside each time. Hoseok read every word of that letter multiple times, trying to memorize the words so he could think about them often. The sender of those letters was very special to him, they sent the first fan mail he ever received. As far as he remembered, they were the first fan he knew of.

Hoseok took a moment to remember the letter, it was small, blue and it had a little Ryan character in one of the bottom corners. Hoseok's name written in glitter pen above the character, as if Ryan was shouting his name. Sometimes an emoticon was added to some place on the envelope. This told him what mood the letter would be, whether it was gonna sad, happy etc. Just one time he received a letter with a sad face on it. He remembered that letter vividly, because there wasn't anything he could do to comfort the sender.

2016 July 28
Dear Hoseok,

I'm not sure what else to write this time. The only thing that's been in my thoughts the last few days is a break up that happened with my boyfriend. I don't understand why he broke up with me. I'm so angry and confused, but I think I'm mainly sad. I thought I would spend the rest of my time with him, we would grow old together. However, I don't think he had the same picture in his head. Oh, the awful things he said to me. I can't even write them down, tears are coming to my eyes just thinking about them.

I've known you for so long, Hoseok. You've known me, too, for a long time. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone else about this. I feel like you'll listen, if you even receive this. I can just hope and pretend you will, and as you do so you're sending positive thoughts my way. That's the only thing you can do at this point. I wish I could meet you. I'd give anything to see you in something that wasn't a picture. The pictures hurt my eyes sometimes, they're so bright when you're on them.

I wonder if I'll even send this letter, or if I do, perhaps I'll regret sending it.

Sorry to send such a sad letter,
Lily

Hoseok had known this girl so long through her letters, he felt bad that he couldn't send her a reply. A reply telling her that he had read the letters she sent him for so long. That it was okay to be sad, and he was glad she told him. However, for the last several years she's been sending letters he hasn't done anymore than just read them. Thinking out her words occasionally.