hi,
it hurts too much mikey, i can't breathe normally anymore. i feel so alone and i need you, but i can't have you. i'm sorry that you think this is all your fault, the truth is it isn't. it's mine. it's always been my fault.
i think i should mention to every single one of you though. so i'll do it. (to those who i'll be not mentioning here, tell them i said sorry for leaving.)
olivia, i hope you know how much calum loves you and cherish him forever. i'll be really sad if you two don't end up together. you're my only gal-friend so be careful. take care of my dinosaur collection, it's my prized possession. i love you.
calum, oh you sweet little calum. i want to say that you're such a dork but you've always managed to make me laugh. please don't be sad when i go, i want to see your smile again when i am up there, or wherever i'm going to be in. i'm gonna miss you so much. i love you.
luke, you're the best bestfriend i could ever have. i think you'll be successful one day, and you'll be full of joy. please don't let my suicide get in the way to achieve your happiness. please don't cry, i need your crystal blue eyes to light up again, it can honestly light up this whole town. i love you so much.
ashton, oh you wonderful ashton, you knew this day would come more than anyone. you've been by my side all this time, and i thank you for that. i have been so fucking blessed to have you in my life and i thank god for giving me this kind of friend. please don't cry, i need to see your adorable dimples again when i go, and your laugh that has always been music to my ears. i'm gonna miss you so much. i love you ashton. i hope you know that.
and michael, oh you fucking jerk. i've loved you longer than you think. i love every single point of you. your morning voice that makes my heart flutter, your eyes that i can use as a lifesaver, the way your eyes crinkles when you laugh so hard, the way your soft hair is always into a funky hairstyle, your love of puppies, the way you could actually make anyone fall inlove with you in 2 seconds. i fell for you, and i don't regret it. i fell for the most amazing man on the planet and i really couldn't ask for a better person to spend my mornings with, but sadly, we won't wake up next to each other anymore, we won't hear each other's voices in the mornings, we won't connect our lips once more. but i'm glad that my suffering is over. i honestly couldn't ask for a better person but you.
i hid the bear keychain that you got me at the drawer in the supply closet, and i hope you'll see the album of the killers there, I made a poem about you too.
And this last tape, I'll just say that I'll still love you when the sun rises and until the day after forever. I hope you realize how perfect you are. I love you, more than you'll ever imagine.
-Peschk
Song in the mixtape:
Asleep - The Smiths
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Fanfiction"Will you still love me when the sun rises?" I loved it when he says that, his tongue rolling just above his teeth while saying the word 'love' it makes my heart flutter. He says that even though he knows my response. "Until the day after forever."
