An author's rant?
I have always known that I was slightly underprivileged that I would never really see any member of Bangtan with my own two eyes. Watch them create magic on a stage too insignificant to their actual aura. Leave a trail of stardust, strange celestial energy behind them. I knew, I KNOW. But tonight, I sit more than just tipsy on the drinks that my "friends" persuaded me into downing and I think. I mindlessly scroll through my YouTube channel looking for my favourite Bangtan crack and replay it. Twice. Thrice. And I lose count after that. I laugh hysterically the first few times, at Jimin's "Excuse Me" and Hobi's head adorned with a flower, his face blinding my eyes with sunshine even through the screen of my mundane phone. And then I'm silent. The tears come shamelessly down my face- exactly when I see Taehyung smile; they come like a flash floods, breaking my will and shattering the walls that exist naturally around me, protecting me from mostly everything. And I feel pathetic...pitiful and SELFISH because among all those dedicated, selflessly devoted ARMYs, I feel like I'm being petty- but no matter what I do, the tears don't stop...because Jin's kisses, Yoongi's gummy smiles, Hobi's constant downpour of sunshine, Joon's dimples and intellect, Jimin's eye smiles and loving words, Kook's doe eyes and bunny teeth...and Tae's whole existence in itself...in those things that keep me company because I'm broken and lonely and my life seems a little meaningless without these 7 men, I am whole- and yet so incomplete. I am there, but I'm not. I'm okay...but am I really?
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Paper Hearts
FanfictionWhere Jungkook hears wedding bells when Taehyung walks by, but Taehyung somehow is always done with Jungkook's shit. But it isn't very easy for CP slash nerd to ignore the football captain, is it? Top\\kook Bottom\\tae Highest Rank - #550 in FanFict...
