Will To Live [Jensoo] ~DISCONTINUED~

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"So, you really cut yourself?" i nod as a respone to Jisoo.

"Why do you cut yourself. I mean, why do you have to?" I looked at her before answering. "Why do you cut yourself too, then?" I said.

"Because it makes me release my emotions and...wait. Why do you return the question to me? This is about you. Now answer, ppalli." i laughed when she said that.

"Okay, okay. I don't exactly know why. But I think it's because of the sudden feeling of emptiness inside. You know? When blood come out of my body, I feel empty inside. Even the problems were vanished." I answered.

"What the reason of the cutting thing last Friday?" she brought up what happened last friday. "Nothing, I just feel like I need to cut. My body needs it." Lies.

"You're kinda weird." she laughed. "I know, and so is you." I answered back. "I am not weird. I'm yeppu." I almost choke because of that.

"You? Yeppu? You're kidding, right?" her face slowly became dond and she plastered a frown. "Ne, I'm just kidding." she said with a low tone.

"Wae? Did I say something wro—— Mian. Sorry for insulting you." I said and cupped her face. "You are pretty. Really pretty." I said with conviction.

She just look away and put my hands down. "I know, I'm not. Butbthankyou for telling me that I'm beautiful." she said and ran away from me and got out of the gym.

Did she just ran away because I sort of told her that she's not pretty?

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After what happened earlier, I did not see Jisoo. I feel so bad. My conscience is eating me. But she's childish. I am just joking and she turned it as a statement.

What is she? A seven year old girl?

I can't believe her.

I was in the middle of walking to the library. My classes are over and I just need to return the book I borrowed.

"Jennie! Jennie-ssi!" I turned around to see Youngjae, panting. Youngjae is one of my friends before. Before the cutting issue was spread.

"Wae, Youngjae?" he breathed first before answering. "Ji-Jisoo-ssi. She's in the clinic. Nurse Tessa told me to call you. She said Jisoo has been whispering your name eversince she blacked out earlier." I immediately became alarmed.

"Why did she blacked out?" He just shook his head.

He told me to follow him and so I did. When we reached the clinic, he opened the door for me and I entered. The cold breeze coming from the aircon was the one who welcomed me.

"Oh, Jennie-ssi. Here you are. Jisoo-ssi is in the ward." i nod to Nurse Tessa and entered the female's ward.

I saw Jisoo there, sleeping. I walked to her side and sit on the chair.

She looks so angelic while she's asleep. She looks like she doesn't have any problem. Like she's not capable of cutting herself.

She has these long lashes and semi-round shape of eyes. Her nose is a perfect fit for her. Even her lips, it's a heart shape. How can she be this perfect?

I was busy studying her face when her eyes opened. "Ohh, you awake. Gwaenchana? What happened to you?" she laughed softly with my reaction.

"Gwaenchana, Jennie-ssi. I just collapsed because I didn't had enough sleep last night." she slightly touched my hair. "I got scared when Youngjae told me that you're here." i told her.

"Are you sure you're okay?" she nod. "What did Nurse Tessa told you about me?" she asks and I can see a bit of scaredness in her eyes.

Why is she scared?

"Nothing, Youngjae was the one who told me that you collapsed." I said and she nod her head...again.

"I'm okay now. What time is it?" i looked at my watch. "It's past 4 in the afternoon." her eyes widen.

"What?! I didn't attend my whole afternoon class. Well, sht." I laughed. "Don't worry. I think your reason is acceptable. The teacher won't punish you."

"But still, class is important." she said and has her little tantrums.

"But your health is more important." I said and cupped her face and looked straight in her eyes.

She looked away and said, "My health isn't important. My subjects and classes are."

"How can you study if your health is not good?" i raised my eyebrow. "I can do that." she said. "Because I'm strong." she added and even showed me her so called muscles.

"How can you be so cute?" i suddenly blurted out. I can see her cheeks blushed.

"I-I, aish. Kajja!" she said jump off the bed. She clung on my neck. "Ouch, it hurts." I said and uncling her arms on my neck.

"Let's just go. Ppalli." she said and get out of the ward. "Aigoo, such a moody person."

"Jennie-ssi! Ppalli!" i heard her shout. "Ne, coming." I said.

When I got put of the ward, Nurse Tessa cornered me. "Jennie, did she told you?" my forehead creased. "Tell me what?" she just shook her head.

"Nothing. You can go, but keep her safe. Don't let her do extreme activities." She tapped my shoulders and get back to the nurse station.

"What the heck is that?" i ask myself.

"Jennie! Faster!" Jisoo kept shouting. "I'm coming."

I got put of the clinic and saw Jisoo leaning on the wall with her arms crossed. "So slow. Let's go. Come with me, I'll get my bag." she said and lead the way.

She got her bag and we go straight to the university's gate. "Do you want me to accompanied you? So you can go home safely." she shook her head.

"No but kamsahamnida." she bowed hear her lightly. She walked to the opposite way. "Annyeong!" she waved and started walking again.

I saw her head bowed while she's walking. Okay...?

-end of chapter-
And update for you, guyseu. If you're somewhat confused by this chapter. I'll eplain it:

The day Jisoo called Jennie and Jennie got caught (well not really) that she's cutting is Friday. The day in this chapter is already Monday.

I will be on a short hiatus. Exam week is this week. I need to study for my dreams, hehe. Hope you'll understand.

Btw, do you want me to insert Chaelisa here? Co'z if you want to, I already has a plan for the story inside my head.

So, yes. I think I can update by Thursday evening (PH Time).

Yes, I'm a PH Blink. Anyone like me? Hehe.

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