Will To Live [Jensoo] ~DISCONTINUED~

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It has been 2 months since the day Jisoo collapsed. Everything's going well, except for the fact that she she collapsed for two times within that time.

We became close. We are like best of friends.

"Jennie Kim!" i heard Jisoo shouted. I turned around to see Jisoo entering the university's gate. "You're late." i told her.

"Wae? My class will start in 20 minutes. I'm early, so early." she said. "But we are going to the library. You ask me to help you for your report. Now, you are late. Our meet up was 10 minutes ago." she shook her head and laugh.

"Come on, it's just 10 minutes. Don't be so grumpy." she said.

"I am grumpy? Jinja? Heol, you're unbelievable." i said then laugh sarcaticaly.

"Alright, alright. Mianhae, but don't blame me. Blame my dog. He bit my sock so I had to find anither pair. Mianhae, mianhae, Jendeukie." she said and does her aegyo, which is pretty cringey. I swear her aegyo is always not onpoint. She's so trying hard when it comes to aegyo.

Don't even mention that Jendeukie nickname that she gave me. I am not clingy but she gave me that nickname. She said, she know that someday I will be clingy as fuck to her. I don't think that will happen. I am a cold hearted girl.

"Jendeukie, Jenduek!" she waved her hand to my face. "Wae?" i ask her. "You're spacing out. Do you have a problem?" i shook my head to answer her question.

"Okay, then. Let's start doing my report. If this will have a good output, I will treat you." she said. "You'll treat me? What will you treat me?" i ask.

"Anything. Anything you want." she answered with her smile. "Just treat me a jokbal. I'm craving for jokbal since yesterday." i said and she nod.

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"Ahhh, I'm so full." i blurted. "Nado, I'm so full." she said.

As we are walking to go home, I saw one familiar face. As in very familiar. I tried hiding behind Jisoo-ssi but that didn't help.

"Jennie-ssi." he called me. "W-Wae, Jin oppa?" i turned around to look at Jin oppa. "What are you doing here?" Jin oppa ask me.

"I came here to eat with a friend." i asnwered. "Jinja? You have another friend?" i nod.

"Oh-Jisoo-ssi. What are you doing here?" Jin oppa said turning to Jisoo. "Annyeonghaseyo, Jin oppa." Jisoo greeted Jin oppa.

"Jankaman, are you two together?" I was shoked by Jin oppa's question. "Oppa! We are not together. We're just friends." I asnwered that mada the both of them laugh.

"I wasn't asking if you are togethere as in romantically. What I mean is, is Jisoo-ssi is the one you are with." I mentally palmed face myself. Why did I think of it that way? It's embarassing.

"Ne, Jin oppa. I treated Jennie-ssi some jokbal." Jisoo-ssi was the one who answered. "I can't believe Jennie-ssi is friends with you, Jisoo-ssi. You are a sweet girl and Jennie-ssi is..." I glared at him.

"...Jennie-ssi is somewhat cold." he continued. I somewhat agreed.

"Don't you know the quote 'Opposite Attracts' Jin oppa?" Jisoo and her savageness. "Ah, ne ne. Alright, I'll go ahead. You two, go home safely, okay? Annyeong!" we waved at him as he walk away.

"How do you know Jin oppa?" I ask Jisoo while we started walking. "He's one of my brother's friend." she answered.

"You mean, Jin Oppa is friends with that bastard?" she immediately shook her head. "Ani, not him. My other brother." she said and my forehead creased.

"You have another brother? Where is he?" she slowly bowed her head. "He died. Just last last year." she said.

"Oh, I'm sorry if I asked you about him."

"Aniyo, it's okay. I've moved on. And now, kajja! It's getting late. Let's walk faster." She said and dragged me.

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"What time is it, Jennie Kim?" I was welcomed with my mother's voice. I looke at my watch and answer, "It's past 8."

"Do you think this is the proper time for a girl to go home." I shook my head. "Then why did you came home late?" she ask.

"I just did some project." i answered. "Project? Until this hour." she said.

"Ne, the deadline is tomorrow. So, we really need to finish it tonight." i lied.

I thought she going to believe me but she get her broom that always serves as bat. "Do you think I will believe you? Our neighbor saw you eating jokbal woth your friend. And I am here starving myself because my daughter is still not home and I can't cook." she said and started to hit me with the broom.

"Hajima, eomma! Stop, you're hurting me!" i said. "This is your punishment for staying late putside and for starving me." she said back and continued hitting me.

"Eomma!" i continued shouting. Finally, after few more hits, she stopped. "Go upstairs! I don't want to see your face." she said. I nod and walked upstairs.

As soon as my door was closed, tears started to fall. What's wrong with hanging out with my friend? I texted her that I'll be home late. I know that lying is bad but that's the only thing that will make me free. Lying that I have this projects so that I can be away from this house longer.

I walked inside my bathroom and get my sharp blade. I sat in the corner and put a cut on my wrist. At first, the cut stings. But as the cuts are getting more, the sting fades.

I cut for another 10 times. My tears are now stopped from falling. The pain inside my chest is now fading. The only pain I'm feeling is the pain from the cuts on my wrist.

I looked at my shoulders. It is full of bruise from earlier. My thighs has red lined indicating that it was hit for so many times.

Another batch of blood is dripping to the floor. My white tiled bathroom is now red.

"I don't want to live anymore." i said and cut another one.

"I am so tired of this life. Fucking shitty life." I said and cut another. I looked at my wrist. It is full of cuts upto my arm.

"I don't want to live." i lastly said.

-end of chapter-
Sorry for the typos and wrong grammars. This update is earlier than I said from the last chap. Co'z I feel so bored studying and everytime I am resting from studying, I write.

Anyways, any update with beulping house? Tbh, I was planning to publish this at 9 pm tom. (KST) same time with the airing of beulping house's first ep. But I read one article that it has been moved (not sure if its true or nahh)

I'll try to update to tom (if i am not stressed on choosing what to wear on pur xmas party)

So yeah, I wrote another long footnote again🙄 I think you need to get used to long footnotes😂

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