Layla | 1

I Lost Her

Ayla
I look up into his eyes. The eyes I once loved. I don't know if I can love them anymore. Logan didn't trust me and hooked up with my best friend... again. And didn't tell me about them hooking up the first time.

"Ayla I'm so sorry," Logan says as tears stream down his face, "I should've believed you!" He then crouched down in front of me and picked up my bleeding hand to inspect it.

"Then why did you fuck Alissa?" I yell at him hysterically crying. I then rip my hand away and push him back with my non hurt hand.

"I-I..." Logan attempts to answer, but he doesn't even know the answer to that question. "I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry? What kind of lame excuse is that?" I yell. I cannot believe that he thinks I'm sorry is going to fix anything.

"Ayla, I love you and can't live without you!" Logan starts to beg for forgiveness.

"Too bad! I hate you! You're just going to have to figure out how to live without me because I never want to see you again!" I shout at Logan, shaking with the power of my words. I then scoot backwards until my back hits the edge of my bathtub. It's unfortunate that this as far away from him I can get at the moment.

"Ayla please," He says crying, "Chloe was able to get over it when I cheated on her-" God, what a dumb analogy! He left Chloe for me!

"You left Chloe for me! If I stay you'll probably leave me for Alissa, and I'm not letting that happen," I shout at him, but do I believe my own words? Maybe he didn't mean it...

"This is different though!" Logan then tries to convince me. He's not fooling anyone. I change my mind. He did what he did and I won't let him get away with it.

"Is it Logan, is it? Were you drunk when you fucked Alissa? If you can't remember, you were drunk when we fucked too!" Logan shifts backwards, taken aback by my statement. "Get out," I tell him lowering my voice. He starts to shake his head no while tears are pouring from his eyes.

"B-but," He starts.

"No Logan, get the fuck out." I bluntly cut him off. "We're... we're over! Oh, and take your stupid ring too," I add, my voice loosing its power and breaking. I then throw the ring at him. He knows I'm angry at him. He knows I'm hurt. He knows that what he did was wrong. Most importantly, he knows that there's nothing he can do to get me back.

Logan
I've lost Ayla. I've really lost her. I'm so stupid! I'm so stupid for not believing Ayla over my idiot brother. I'm so stupid for getting drunk. I'm so stupid for hooking up with Alissa. I'm so stupid because I'm walking away. I'm standing up and walking out of Ayla's apartment. I'm giving up.

After my walk of shame out of Ayla's apartment I fall down outside of her door. Every thing is breaking inside of me. What have I done? I made the girl cut herself for crying out loud! I did that to someone! I did that to the person I love.

Ayla
I sit in my bathroom. Still bleeding. I just ended everything. I kicked Logan out. I just told Logan I hated him. I don't hate him, do I? He did fuck my best friend... I wonder what he's going to tell the vlog. I'm going to get so much hate because of this. I wish I never hooked up with Logan in New York! That was possibly the biggest mistake of my life!

Logan
I try to stand up and make my way to the steps or elevators, but I'm too weak. Everything hurts still. Yet I feel numb. My emotions feel numb, my body feels numb. The worst part is that it's my fault. I should've trusted Ayla. Not Jake. God, I'm an idiot. Now I lost her.

I lost her.
I lost her.
I lost her.

i
lost
her

And there is not anything I can do about it.

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ayo! this is the last chapter... of this book! yes there will be a sequel. i'll post on this saying when it's out! be sure to check my next update because I'll be mentioning songs that helped me write this book!! are you crying? i'm about to cry! until my next book,
xoxo meg