After Death e.g.d

Grey Pebble

Ethan's POV

I wake up in my room, not remembering how the hell I got there. My head was throbbing. I groan and sit up in bed. I look over to see an two aspirins and a cup of water placed on my bedside table. I take the aspirins and plop then into my mouth and chug the glass of water. I rub my eyes and am greeted by a not too happy Grayson sitting on a armchair in my room.

"Good morning idiot" he says getting up and walking towards me. I notice the bags under his eyes and the worry lines on his forehead.

"The fuck happened to you" I say getting up and heading to my bathroom.

"You, asshole. By the way talking about shit that happened, why the fuck were you so hammered last night?." Grayson asks curious

"I don't remember honestly" I say putting some toothpaste on my toothbrush.

"Ya well you put Cloe through a shit ton" he says leaning against my bathroom door frame.

I almost gag on my spit.

"What the fuck do you mean" I say to him standing up straight and spitting out the foamy toothpaste in my mouth.

"You called her at like 2 in the morning. She picked you up and brought you here." Grayson says..

"Where was I..?" I ask afraid of the answer

"She found you at the bridge... y/n's bridge.." Grayson says slowly looking down.

I stay silent knowing how disappointed he was in me

"What the fuck were you doing there Ethan?!" Grayson says raising his voice a little

"You know you're not allowed to go there. You know what happens. You have been fine for 2 years. What the hell changed?!?!" Grayson says yelling at me

"SHE CAME BACK! Okay.... she came back." I put my head down

"She isn't back E. She's not coming back." Gray says to me and I feel a sudden rage

"Stop.." I say to him quietly

"Her mother buried an empty coffin OKAY ETHAN. You need to get over her. She drowned in a river because people treated her like shit making her feel like shit. She's dead!!." Grayson says stepping closer and yelling at me as if to get it through my head.

"I FUCKIN SAID STOP IT" I say charging towards Grayson with anger blurring my conscious. I grab onto his shirt with one hand and start punching him with the other. He flips us over so he was on top of me punching me. I felt him being pulled off of me. I got up and saw Jack holding Grayson back. I storm out of my bedroom and into the hallway. I see the full length mirror on the wall. I punch it with all my rage and it smashes. Grayson and jack run out and see me standing there with a bloody hand.

They stare at me in shock and I dart down the stairs. Tears running down my face. Not because of the pain but because of how mad I was. I grab my keys and get into my car.

I drive until I get to my favourite spot. I sit against a large rock while playing with a grey pebble.

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"So um today sucked." I say with a chuckle picking away at the rock.

I stare at the bridge that killed her... The bridge that killed me...

"I miss you..." I say looking towards the water that rushed under the bridge.

I look over to the names I wrote on the rock with sharpie from grade 8.

"I hope you know how much I love you" I say tracing my thumb over the names.

"I wish you knew" I say feeling a hot tear roll down my cheek

I start throwing rocks into the river. "Why did you have to leave me"

I sit there for what seems like hours. I keep talking about stuff that's going on in my life and what happened with Grayson. I tell her about how there was a new girl.

"She reminds me of you." I tell her. I know it's stupid and she probably can't hear me but I feel like she can.

It gets dark and i look at my phone. I see the twelve missed calls from Grayson and twenty one messages. Twenty from Grayson and one from Cloe....

I open up Grayson's messages first. Most were apologizes and others were him being worried

I open the one from Cloe and read it over and over again.
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"She loves you too"