After Death e.g.d

By my lonesome part 2

Homecoming night. Tonight's the night I'll kill myself..

.....

Well kinda

I noticed that no one actually loves me... not even me

But I want a fresh start and that can't happen if I live here.

But first another day of hell

I put on my lucky orange pants and a green turtle neck top that has Elvis Presley sown on the front

I put on some uggs and put my hair into a braid and went downstairs.

"Good morning Y/n" my mom says

I sit down at the table and say "Good morning mom"

"Are you going to homecoming tonight" she asks

"Ya probably" I say quietly

"OO GOODY, I was afraid I raised a boy" she says giddily

Yep

That's my mom

I get up to go to school and she looks at me with disappointment. My own mother hated my guts. I never knew my father since my mom never told me his name but he was just a one night stand went wrong as my mom liked to put it.

I walk into the school and go to my locker

I grab my stuff and go to my science class. I sit down in the back because I don't wanna get noticed. Too late.

"Hey loser" Makenzie says. She's one of the prettiest and richest girls in the school. She also happens to be Grayson Dolans girlfriend.

I just put my head down and start to doodle. More people come in and the bell rings after everyone is seated farthest away from me. The teacher walks in and after a minute so does Ethan and Grayson Dolan. They were probably at practice or something

"Sorry were late miss we were at practice and the coach asked us to stay a little later to help with equipment" Ethan quickly explained

"No problem boys, go have a seat" she says

Grayson goes and sits next to the seat Mackenzie was saving for him. Ethan comes and sits down next to me??!!!!!!!!!!

"Hey" he says

"Hi-i" I say stuttering

I look back down and start doodling again

"Did you make that?!" He asks me taking my drawing and moving closer to me

"Um yea-yeah" I say tucking a strand of hair behind my ear.

"It's amazing. You got skills y/n" he says looking carefully at the drawing of an eye.

"You uh kn-know my-my name?" I ask surprised

He laughs. "Of course I know your name" he says smiling

I just smile and look back down at my drawing

After class I walk to my locker. The rest of the day goes on and it's soon time to go home.

*Time skip to 7 pm*

I look at my self in the mirror

It's time to die

I go downstairs and grab my keys to my broken down car

It's time

"Y/n I'm gonna go on a date with this hot docter so dinners in the oven" my mom says before walking out the door

I wait until I see her leave the driveway so I can go. I see her leave and I head out to my car.

*2 hours earlier*

"I'm y/n. I can't do it anymore. Kids at school are mean and I'm ugly. I love you mom even though I'm not sure you love me. I also wanna say this since I have nothing else to loose anymore. I liked you Ethan Dolan. U and ur brother were the only people in the school who didn't make fun of me. And you were always so sweet and kind. I'm sorry to all those people who had to deal with me..... Finally this is goodbye...." I finished the recording on my laptop. More proof that I am actually dead.

*Now*

I leave the key in the ignition and make sure my car falls over the bridge.

I'm dead