After Death e.g.d

Finale

"What the hell is this?!" He says yelling and getting up, still holding onto my wrist. His grip tightens probably leaving a purple mark.

"I-I can ex-explain Ethan" I stutter getting up also. He's seen it before. I can tell in his eyes that he recognizes this scar.

He shakes his head in disbelief and backs away from me.

"Your alive?" He says in a shocked whisper. His voice cracked and he contemplated everything he believed. The girl he once loved was still alive.

His eyes fill with hurt, betrayal and tears. His body tenses up and his eyebrows furrow. His defined jaw clenched and unclenches in frustration. His face is full of confusion.

I stay silent.

His sadness immediately turns to rage as he grabs me by my shoulders.

"WHY?! WHY DID YOU DO THIS?! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU" he says shaking me aggressively

"E I couldn't be here anymore" I say reasoning with him

"THATS NOT A FUCKIN EXCUSE. YOU LET US BELIVE YOU WERE DEAD! YOU SELFISH BITCH" he yells before pushing me down

I cry and say sorry repeatedly. I fear for my safety as Ethan suddenly becomes quiet before speaking up again.

"I'm going to the cops to report you. Your out of mine and Grayson's lives for good." He says before storming to the door.

I try to chase after him but he gets into his car and drives towards the police station. I quickly get into my car and race after him. He makes sharp turns and goes a lot faster then he should but I stay right on his tail.

He pulls into the police station and gets out of his black Range Rover.

"Ethan please" I beg him

He stops and turns around

"Give me 1 reason not too go in there" he says

"Because I love you" I say to him

He stays silent

"Then why did you leave" he says

"Because I had nothing Ethan. No one. You don't understand how much it hurt" I say to him crying

"I understood after you left"

Flashback

"Ethan stop drinking. You've already drank half of the frickin bottle" Grayson says trying to grab it from me

I put my finger to his mouth to shut him up. He seriously needs to loosen up

"It's for her. Cheers babe." I say taking another swig from my bottle of vodka.

"I love you" I whisper before taking another sip

"Imma go head upstairs now" I say getting up and wobbling up the stairs

Why did she have to leave me. Why did she have to kill her self. I want to be with her so bad. Maybe I should just die. No one would miss me.

I grab the exacto knife from my desk and put it onto my wrist. I slice my skin vertically, making sure to hit a artery.

I do the same with my other arm

"Hey E, are yo- O MY GOD ETHAN! MOM, DAD" I hear Grayson yell. He started getting blurry and faded. His voice was distant.

I hear ambulance sirens in the distance. The same sirens I heard on the bridge.

"Cmon Ethan stay awake hunny" my mom says holding my head.

I felt bad but I was going to see her again. Me and her could finally be free.

Now

"I was hospitalized for 2 months in an Adolecent Psyche Ward. I tried killing myself another 3 times in there." He says emotionlessly

I stand there bawling my eyes out. He almost died because of me.

He almost died.

I couldn't find any words inside of me. I honestly didn't know what to say

He turns back around to go inside the station. I don't stop him. I deserve this

I walk in behind him to say sorry

"Eth-" I'm cut off by him getting mad and turning around.

"WHAT Y/N?!" He grabs my by my arm and shakes me

He called me by my name. It's been so long since someone's called me that.

"HEY GET YOUR HANDS OFF OF HER" a police officer says from behind Ethan

Ethan doesn't let go and the police officer tazes him.

The light of the taser blinding me as everything evaporates into dust

I see all white until I open my eyes.

I'm greeted by a room full of people. It takes me a second to remember what I was doing.

"Congratulations Jasmine, you have successfully made it out of the fear simulation." Felinity says to me as I step out of the council

"Thank you" I say generously

"Okay who's next" she says to the line up of kids.

"Great going 33" Jackson says coming up to my and nudging me on the shoulder

"Were you watching it all" I ask him

"Yup. Even the part where you thought I hated you. Is that really one of your fears Jas?" He asks me smiling

"Oh shut up you goof, you know I love ya" i say to him as we walk towards our quarters.

"Did you really fake your own death" he says

"Yeah. I've always been afraid to go back." I say to him

"And everything else?" He asks

"I was afraid of being bullied again. I was afraid of my mom being okay without me. Afraid of you hating me. Even Hades was there. He came up to me in the bar. I was afraid he was going to kill me. And most of all I was afraid of falling in love with Ethan Dolan" I say

It all felt so real. Now that I know it wasn't, I really do wonder what home is like.