One Life {finished}

Nine: Last

It has been such a boring saturday afternoon. The only amazing thing was that I woke up with Derek. Other than that it was boring. I had texted Derek to hangout but he was busy doing some job with his dad. I recieved a text from Jason and I ignored it. He has called me like 3 times. I mean I get where he's coming from he kissed me and told me how he truly felt and here I am ignoring him completely. He must be ruining his reputation just for a little crush. He called me again and I answered from annoyance.

"What do you want Jason?!" "I just wanted to say hello and talk about everything that happened last night." "It was all a mistake. Oh, I don't really care." "How can you play with my feelings like that. What happened last night was truly amazing for me and you made me realized that hiding who I truly am takes me away from all the amazing experiences. But I guess now it's actually protecting me." "Jason I didn't...I didn't mean to make you feel like that." I hated myself so much for getting him involved in my life. Now I'm destroying him. I always break and destroy every possibility that can bring happiness to my life. I hated everything about me. I hate myself. I heard Jason sniffle.

"Well it doesn't matter now does it Caroline?" He hung up and I was about to drown in my own tears. How could I hurt Jason. I was being a bitch to an asswhole. It shouldn't work like that. I don't want to hurt anyone I care about. But lately thats all I'm doing. Hurting the people I love and care for.

It has been two hours and I'm still laying on bed. I got a text from Derek. It was 6:37 pm. I clicked on the text notification and looked at the text.

Derek:

Hey babe I'll be at your balcony any minute (:

Me:

Ok babe see you up here :*

I walked to the balcony and opened my window. I looked up and saw Derek standing there with his phone in his hands. He looked up and smiled locking his phone putting it in his pocket. I went to hug him and his hands hugged around my waist. He leaned down and kissed me.

"I missed you" I said with a sad face. "Aw babe I was gone for like three hours" He laughed. He's so adorable. These are the moments I lived for. We went to sit on the couch in my room. I rested my legs on his lap.

"Hey Caroline Jason is having a party at his house and he invited me. After what happened yesterday I don't think you want to go" He was right. I hurt Jason and he's going to get even more upset if he sees me with Derek. But I wanted to have fun as well. I have been stuck at home all day. I needed to go out.

"No I want to go Derek. I've been bored out of my mind." He chuckled and came closer kissing my cheek. "Ok so you do want to go?" "Yeah lets party." "Alright I'll be back in an hour baby." "You're leaving again" I made a sad face and Derek started tickling me. I started laughing really hard and fell on my bed.

"Stop..Derek...Stop" I laughed and he laughed still tickling me. He got closer and kissed me. His arms settled on my sides and I rested my hands around his neck. I kissed him and He started leaving kisses down my neck and then stopped. I looked up to see what was wrong.

"Did I do that last night?" He pointed to a spot on m neck. "Do what?" He got up and I followed him to my mirror. "Holy shit you did." He chuckled and I stared at a hiccie on the side of my neck. "Whoops. Want me to make more." "Derek!!" I hit his chest playfully and he carried me twirling me around. I started laughing and I fought against his strong arms. He dropped me on my bed and his smile was the best thing that ever happened to me. He licked his lips and I wanted him. He was so desirable. I turned on so fast like wild fire.

"How about we take a shower together?" Derek stared at me with a shocked but intrigued face. Even I was surprised at my own words. He smiled and I knew that's exactly what he wanted now. He crossed to his balcony to get his outfit.