Reteach Me | Kylo Ren x Reader

Chapter Nineteen | The Gift of Memories

When Kylo had told you of the plan to officially keep you, you felt like you could have died right then and there. You thought for sure you were dreaming because this couldn't actually be happening to you again. Kylo had slapped you, yelled at you, strung you up by your neck, and now for some reason feels like he's justified in kidnapping you and your son? This was just like the Kylo you had known four years ago, selfish and violent, only thinking about him and his needs.

You bawled, how were you going to tell Griffin that his biggest fear was now truly becoming a reality? How were you going to explain to Griffin that he was never going to see his beloved daddy ever again, or his friends, or his teacher, or auntie Rey, or anyone else on the base? More importantly, how were you going to live knowing that all of those people were going to die in a matter of days all because of you? Finn, Rey, Eli, and all of your friends were going to be blown to smithereens because you felt like Griffin deserved to spend time with his real father.

"Kylo, please! You just can't keep me here! I don't want to live the rest of my life locked up with you again!" You begged Kylo to understand where you were coming from, you had spent a year behind his door, you could count on one hand how many times you were allowed to walk over the threshold. He had subjected you to beatings, rape, emotional abuse, verbal abuse, things you just would not have the strength to relive again, much less subject your own son too. "Shoot me, choke me to death, drown me, I don't care! Anything would be better than spending one more moment with you!"

All Kylo did was shake his head at you. "I am keeping you safe, y/n. You wouldn't believe me if I told you what was actually going on, about what you can't see behind the scenes. Just know that I am making the best decision for you and our son. You'll see in the end." Kylo bent down in front of you, his eyes begging for your understanding and quite possibly your forgiveness. You watched as he took in a shaky breath, a sign that he was fighting tears.

"I'm going to take you to take you to our home, remember our home on Star Killer? Much bigger than the one on the Finalizer. Griffin has his own room that I've completely redone, he's got a bed, lots of clothes, and toys. Just like back at home, okay?" You were shaking as he explained what your life would be like from here on out, back to the place you had suffered for an entire year. "I've put in a new bathroom, had clothes delivered for you and our fridge is fully stocked, just the way you like it y/n. And just like on the Finalizer I'm giving you free roam, you won't be locked up again, I promise."

Kylo grasped your face one more time, pulling you forward as he attempted to kiss you, you sucked your lips into your mouth and shut your eyes, pulling your head out of his hand and facing to your left. Kylo was mad if he thought you'd willingly kiss him after the day's events. You cracked one eye open just in time to see Kylo turn and start walking away.

It felt like hours before some storm troopers came to take you to your home. You had been sitting in the dark ever since Kylo had left, still tied to your chair even thought Kylo promised you free roam. It was the first of his lies for this new adventure that was being forced upon you. The storm troopers unlocked you and the first thing you did was attack them. You were hoping one of them would shoot you to put you out of your misery, if not then maybe by some stroke of luck you'd kill all of them and be free to run away, to find Griffin and find a way out of this hell you'd have to call home.

Instead you found yourself thrown to the ground at the hands of the storm trooper you jumped on. Afterword you were restrained in a straight jacket, your arms crossed over your chest as you were wheeled around the base to Kylo Ren's quarters. You had no idea where Griffin was or what he was doing, but from the conversation you had with Kylo you had assumed he was fine. Kylo had planned on at least keeping him in close proximity to you, you were happy he was generous enough to do that. You had stopped fighting two minutes into the ride, there was just no use. You had been disarmed and weren't strong enough to break out of the cloth holding you back, it would be better to just try and relax until you were released, then you could try to fight your way out.