Reteach Me | Kylo Ren x Reader

Chapter Seven | For you, my Love

Kylo hadn't meant to take on a new lover so early after y/n had left him. In fact, Kylo hadn't meant to take on a new lover at all. He was so lonely, so desolate, and just so depressed without his wife around. Once he found out he had a child it made things so much worse. His new assistant was cute, he had to admit. But when she first came on he told himself he would not engage in anything sexual with her because he was still planning on getting his wife back.

That plan went out the door pretty quickly as he found himself keeping her locked in his quarters everyday, fucking her day and night just like she wanted him to, just to keep her to himself- just like he did with his wife. Unfortunately he messed up, lost his cool one night and beat her. She ran away from him, fleeing the base and was never heard from again.

Kylo supposed that's why it had taken him so long to find his wife, he was so infatuated with this other girl. The two looked nearly identical, acting similar, although his secretary was way more promiscuous than his wife. He didn't know if he could say he loved his assistant, but she did a good job of taking the pain away every time she'd spread her legs for him.

He worked tirelessly to find his assistant in the first few weeks after her disappearance, but strangely she had no records. No record of birth, travel, name changes, anything. He breifly wondered how she got hired into the First Order if she was this unfindable, there were all sorts of background checks she had to pass to get such a high ranking position. It wasn't worth picking his own brain about it, though. He had terminated her and he knew she wasn't coming back. The night he gave up on finding his lover he dropped his head to the keyboard of his computer, creating a sequence of random letters and numbers on his document about the woman. Maybe it would be best that he just live in solitude for the rest of his life. His uncontrollable angry outbursts scared now two women away from him, he just wasn't cut out for this life at all.

Years later he was pulled into a meeting with Snoke, wondering where the child was. Kylo had nothing to say, he had given up hope for himself and no longer wanted to look for his missing family. Supreme Leader Snoke reminded him about the potential the child could have, reminding him that he had no one to take his spot as the leader of the Knights of Ren and of the First Order. Internally Kylo shook his head. This job had hardened him, had made him so lonely that he almost didn't want his child to live this life, he was content with just dying alone with no one else to take over after him.

But just as Snoke does, he fired Kylo up with his words. He made him feel like his wife had wronged him by keeping him away from his child for four years. She was selfish for running away from him when he was the one who saved her in the first place. He left that room in a rage, running into his office where he smashed his helmet into the wall over and over, circuitry sparking all over the room. This was all her fault, she did this to him! All he wanted was a family for him and y/n, he wanted a one or two children to call his own and to raise them in an environment he didn't get, and y/n took it all away from him.

He would make her pay, make her and the Resistance pay for his pain and suffering over the last four years. And then he would take his child and raise it the right way, to rule the universe.

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Rainy days were always Griffin's favorite days. He loved wearing his bright red raincoat and rain boots with his little bright red umbrella. Red was that boys favorite color. He always begged you to let him play in the rain but you often said no due to the fact that he was a preemie at birth, his health was too easily compromised because of those special circumstances. Today, however, you allowed him his wish. The two of you took a walk in the rain to the library for his preschool class. Usually Finn offered to take you guys in his car before work but you decided against it since Griffin always loved the rain.