LEFT-EYE/POV
I walked back into the hospital passing Tionne & them i looked over Tionne & give me a head not letting me know that i am doing the right thing i nod my head & kept going i didn't stop until i headed straight to her room...
their it is standing right at the door i took deep breath before going inside.
It hit me hard as soon as i saw her laying there everything around me stop even my own heart step back for a second
I would be lying if i said that seeing her like this kinda fuck with me i had to take another breath again
The pressure was weighing heavy on my heart my mind went blank.
But i can't back down now after that talk with Tupac he really open my eyes i know i can talk to her but on her her own time she would have to wake up that's if she ever do i need her to know that i actually care that she lives
I want what best for her i need to step up my game & protect her more...
I went over to her & set right next to her & grab her hand i lean down & kiss her hand then i looked back over to her she was still sleep but i wanted to talk to her i know she talk but but at least she can hear me tho.
Hey chilli I'm right here I'm not gonna leave u i am sorry this happened to u i never mean for u to get hurt like this if u die then I'll know it was my fault i should've watch out for u better.
I never wanted this life but some how it chooses me i don't want to bring u down along with me
I know that it been plenty of times that i should did right by u i mean honestly we went from chasing u down putting my hands on u but it all change because u was there u bail me out kill u stand here & waited until i was heal u waited patiently & that's what i am going to do Tupac talk some sense into me.
He really open my eyes & now i realize some things i like what i am thinking that's what your thinking huh.
Well i am still trying to figure that out myself well to be honest something's are more important than other but
Would u believe that your more important to me...
I mean think about it i never thought i would ever fall in love ever again but i did i smile to myself
Not until u came along & change things
You wanna get involved with me after knowing what happened if u gotten to close u still stay down.
Wiping away a few tears from my eyes i had to myself a few seconds but i had to remind strong even tho.
I wanted to break down i refused to let my emotions get the best of me this time.
i would be lying if i said i wasn't scared but the truth is that i am scared
it took me awhile i didn't want to say the wrong thing.
But at the same time i didn't want to lose her so i really need to talk to her
i should express my feelings but she knows that i am not that open but then again it times like this u gotta give it a try...
Sighs i can't believe i am doing this let out a huge amount exhale okay here goes nothing...
I set here for a minute & gather all my thoughts together before pouring out my heart I looked back at her
she looked so peaceful man how am i gonna do this looking at her
This is so wired okay look i am not use to saying this but i love u chilli i need u to come back to me i mean can try & do better i want u to fight this u are strong & when u wake up the first thing i can't wait to see is your eye man i can't wait to hear your voice it feels like your giving me the silent treatment & i am doing all that i can to get u to talk to me
but i know u not but that's how i feel but i want u to know that i still do care about u & i need u here with me
I'm gonna get the ones who did this to u i put that on everything & nobody is gonna stop me best believe that....
Just worry about getting better and hold on if i can make it through then u can make it to u stronger than u think.
TBC...
