Life on a demand

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Life is cruel, we live in a fake world, we are tempted in everything until we become addicted to the world and we become selfish ...

What I hope to achieve is that
"in every chapter of your life you learn something, don't just live but learn"

"Am just a simple young teenager trying to understand about life and write it down"

• PS am not a writer, just trying out writing skills 🤦🏽‍♀️ .

I am on my early 20's writing this story of mine while seated on the plane.

In my lifestyle my family have always strived for us to achieve the best, and I have learned much and I will still continue to learn.

Well, Finding the perfect job after graduation is every students dream,
buying the perfect home for my parents and make them proud, it isn't a new thing we've all said that once in our life time!

but have we thought of changing the world?! Or being a successful, a leader or simply to be a better person, a better daughter, a better sister, and a better friend?!

My family took a huge risks in their decisions which might affect us and it could lead to consequences like delay of graduation, financially instability and some other outcomes ..

Remember  delaying of graduation isn't a huge matter I guess, it won't measure my intelligence or judge my life, well certificate will help me have a secured future, at the end what important to me is" Am I learn anything?" "Am I happy with what am I doing?"

If I'm satisfied with those 2 major question then I am on a safe side, if not then that could increase the risk of failure and I have to prevent this risk as much as I can.

I like to spent my time on my phone, just like any other normal girl.
I didn't know much about myself until I entered college, I believe I was 18 by that time, I didn't know much about life, I was young and everything seem to be new to me.

I opened my eyes to see the world, barely knew how to talk, barely had friends, I just barely knew myself.

Well growing up in a narrow minded country with a Arab community it took me a huge step up in my life to convince my family that I'm growing up, and we all know this logic
" no matter how old we grow, we will always  be mommy's babies".

There's no way of growing up, moms cant accept the fact we are growing up and that's normal it's an endless love.

Growing up in huge family members helped to learn and understand the difference of people, we aren't the same
Each one of us has her own uniqueness

My grandfather had four wives so obviously I have bunches of cousins and I don't know some of them.
My mom lived with her sister, we lived in the same house for years now.

As am growing up, I had to learn so much about reality of love, hate, pain and patience.

My parents didn't give me that much attention when I was little, as a child I used to think that they hate me, I guess I was wrong it's just how they raised me and how they want me to be, a strong and independent girl,

I felt lonely,hated, worthless but all this thoughts that came into my brain was just a part of growing up,

It made me stronger today, and it's ok to feel that way and I should know my worth, my purpose.

As a young lady Everyday I have to remind myself that "Am different I know I am, am not like anybody else, I know why am here and I know my purpose".

Everyday is a brand new day and am thankful that I woke up healthy, grateful, and most important, blessed.

Growing up abroad was challenging I thought it would be fun, like "Yay finally i will have my own space and my own life" but to be honest it's not that simple, I mean growing up in a huge family members then being separated from them is the worst feeling called "Loneliness" and i feared so many things,

I feared to fail, to live, to love , to lost, will i get through this? Will it be ok?! So many random thought and its ok to feel that way.

On my everyday life, I see things that I am tempted to own, things that I can't have, I felt ungrateful with the things I had, like I have everything but I've always looked up at people who are higher than me.

We tend to forget about people who are in need and slowly we become addicted to the world and slowly become selfish and ungrateful,
and It hurts me to say that I have become that way I have gone way to far in this life, l have become addicted to the world, I am temped to own everything I have become so selfish, and to this I have to say it's not ok to feel that way,
We need to change the world and making it a better place for people to live is what I hope to achieve,

Everybody understands that it is almost impossible for one person to change the world. But one person can make a difference.

It could be you.