Texting You

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A/N: So I changed most of the Normally stuff so if you want to skip through everything else, that's mostly the same, but if I were you I'd read the Normally stuff. Not so much this chapter as the others. Sorry about the inconvenience lol, if you can't tell I am a horrible perfectionist. Read on!

12:21 PM

*Chat between Mani and Camz*

Camz:
Hey Mani

*Read*

Camz:
I just wanted to make sure you were okay so, um, are you?

Mani:
No

But that's not why you texted.

You want to know what I did to Ally

Camz:
Well, yes

But I also care about you and you seem a little upset

You did something to Ally?

Mani:
I am upset

And no, I didn't

But that's what everyone thinks right? It's impossible for Ally to hurt anyone so it's always my fault.

I always hurt her.

Camz:
I don't think that

I think that a relationship goes both ways in all situations.

Can you tell me why you're upset?

Mani:
You don't want to know what's going on?

Camz:
I do, but I want to make sure you're okay first

Mani:
Idk

I'm sad and I'm hurt and there's nothing really wrong but at the same time everything is wrong

Camz:
Oh Mani I'm so sorry

Do you want to come over?

Mani:
If I come over I'm not going to be able to say what I need. 

I'll chicken out.

Camz:
Okay so say what you need to say and then when you've gotten everything out, you can come over. 

I won't even make you watch power rangers. Your movie choice.

Mani:
Alright

You know how Ally and I kept joking about how Normally would never be as good as Camren and all that stuff?

Camz:
Yes

Mani:
Well at first it was funny you know? Something that we would laugh and tease each other about, but then it started to not be funny anymore. It started to hurt my feelings. 

Because she would start saying things like that I wasn't good enough or that I wasn't trying hard enough. Basically implied that I wasn't satisfying her in this relationship anymore and it hurt me a lot. I know that she was mostly joking, but the key word there is mostly. There was some truth to her jokes and I could tell. 

And then, simitaneously, Ally started getting a little bit distant. Like maybe a week or so ago. Idk. Like when we kissed it was never very long or heated.... just kissing. Ya know? I can just tell. 

I'm not good enough for her

Camz:
Mani babe, that's not true. You're amazing. Anyone would be lucky to get to date you.

If she's hurting your feelings, why didn't you say anything?

Mani:
Because people always expect me to be this strong and confident person, especially within my relationship. I'm not supposed to be self conscious and insecure and doubting myself because of a girl. It's a weakness.