The Secret Goodbye
It hurts. It hurts like hell. It hurts so much he could feel it consume his emotional strength. The pain, it felt like dejavú but the weight of it doubled. They say time could heal anything. Time can make you stronger and readier but why does he felt like he grew weaker in time. His mind tells him he can do this but his heart keeps on reminding him that he is fragile and so is she. The woman who is happily talking to him about how her day went.
Maybe this is how his mom felt when she knew she was dying and she didn't let anyone knew about it until it's goodbye time. It's just sad that he has to undergo the same process as well. If only he could ask for her advice. Maybe the fear, pain, and heartache would be easier to manage.
"How about you? How was your day?" Tommie was pulled out of his reverie when he heard his Emy asked.
He smiled and sip wine from his glass and then cleared his throat. "Mine, my day was a complete definition of boring. Sitting in the office, forced to read a lot of papers. I can never really fathom why my father survived this kind of work. I mean, how can I be so busy? I'm still a bachelor. I should be enjoying my time with you." He then touched her hand and carress her knuckles.
"You'll get used to it.. You are my mister Mchalle. You will manage your family business tho whether you like it or not." She chuckled.
"I would probably be the worst owner" he joked.
"You are a good person and a wise one Tommie... But i fear that in the future, you wouldn't have so much time for me or if ever, to our kids." She commented with a pout.
And then there's the bittersweet thought about the future. He thought to himself. "Probably" he answered with a facade.
"You barely touched your food." She spoke.
"Oh really..." he chuckled.. "I was a little bit distracted."
"By what?" his Emy asked innocently.
"There's a very beautiful woman in front of me." he smiled dearly.
She smiled cheekily, "Don't start." she giggled.
"I'm not joking.."
And then their night was spent like that. They laughed and talked and it was plain bliss for him. A kind of memory he would like to remember soon.
"What are we doing here?" Emily asked.
"I wanna watch the stars with you..." Tommie answered as he handed his girlfriend a cup of hot chocolates.
"Oooh marshmallows..." she excitedly received it.
He just winked and sat beside her.
Tommie brought Emily to his beach house. It's a property he bought recently and he just come from time to time to visit. He doesn't really live there. He just wanted to have a peaceful place to go whenever he needs to think things over. And the property came very timely to his life crisis.
"Mine..." he called in a raspy voice. They're staying at the rooftop, him lying on the roof while Emily is busy adoring the hot chocolate he made for her.
"Hmm?" she answered.
"I wanna do something. An adventure." he said without removing his eyes to the stars.
"Since when did you like adventures?" she asked.
"Since Fifty Shades of Grey came out." he shrugged.
"What the heck. Are you being serious???" she commented in disbelief.
"I'm kidding.." he smiled. "But still are you up for it?"
"Tomilson, no fifty shades for me. No. It's a no no for me." she answered while shaking her head.
"Not that.." he chuckled. "The adventure." he said, still looking at the stars. He could not bare to look at her because he is silently breaking apart inside and looking at her will only make it worse.
"Well... it doesn't sound so bad." she smiled.
"All you need is to sign these papers." he took out the papers from his folded tux and handed it to her. He looked at her for a little second and then back to the stars. But he made sure to not make it obvious that he is breaking apart.
CONTRACT OF AGREEMENT
This Agreement is entered into as of 18th Day of January 2018 between "Monika Emily Hest" (The Girlfriend)and "Tomilson Mchalle" (The Boyfriend)
1. The Boyfriend. Subject to the terms and conditions of this Agreement, shall lead the relationship for Three (3) Months. In connection thereof, the Girlfriend is not allowed to reject whatever the Boyfriend wills to do in the relationship, this includes but not limited to; food choices, clothing, decision-making, gifts, places of dates.The Girlfriend hereby accepts such arrangement.
2. Expenses. The Boyfriend will take responsibility of all expenses during the time agreed upon.
3. Conflicts of Interests. The Girlfriend must in all circumstances agree with the Boyfriend at all times.
4. Confidentiality. The Boyfriend shall have the discretion of telling or not telling the reason behind this contract. The Girlfriend is allowed to inquire the reason behind actions but cannot force the former to elaborate his answer.
5. Termination. Said contract shall automatically terminate at the very last day of the third month. No further favor shall be made by both parties.
IN WITNESS WHEREOF the undersigned have executed this Agreement as of the day and year first written above. The parties hereto agree that facsimile signatures shall beas effective as if originals.
By:_______________________ By:___________________
Emily looked at him with confused eyes. "Contract papers? for a little adventure?"
"Why not?" he shrugged.
"Are you practicing being legal to your girlfriend?" she laughed.
"Maybe.." as he plastered a fake smile.
Emily inhaled sharply and scrunched her nose, "well, this will be fun but why do I feel like this contract is really unfair on my part."
"Because that's how it is.." he chuckled.
"Okay then. Hand me a pen." she chirped.
And even though deep inside, he is breaking apart, he would rather break apart seeing her smile and live her life without any complications than let her cry and worry for his melancholic agony.
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a/n:
You guys might be really tired of me saying (writing) sorry in every author's noted but yeah, I am sorry. Recently, I lost the drive to write my thoughts but then thanks to friends and all the readers out there for constantly reminding me to write XD
Lovelots,
~simplywhimsey ^_~
