Depressed

Chapter 29

I woke up seeing my Mom pacing around the room,she was sweating profusely even when the room was cold. I looked around, my hand was in bandage, the room I was in was having a creamy colour,there were more than two beds in the room,the smell of antiseptic and dettol graze my nose, the cloth I was wearing brought me to my realization,I was in the hospital.

What happened to me last night? I thought.

My Mom turned and saw that I was awake she informed the doctor and he came to do his checkup.

"How are you feeling?"

The doctor asked.

"Ok, but a slight headache"

I replied him.

"Do you feel pains?"

He asked touching my knee area.

"Yes,but around my abdomen"

I replied him.

"Ok,do you by chance remember what happened to you?"

He asked.

I looked at my Mom who was already in panic mode. She looks so worried. I know she's expecting me to say something. But i don't remember.

"No,I don't remember"

I replied the doctor.

"Ok, that's ok"

He said leaving.

"My dear, you have to remember something, I was worried sick about you. I thought you wouldn't make it"

My Mom said Hugging me.

"Mom where did you see me?"

I asked her because I don't seem to remember the whole of last night apart from me going to bed.

"I saw you in the bathroom, with blood all over your body. You were awake but wasn't aware of what you were doing."

The thought of blood all over my body made me shiver. Was i sleep walking? I thought.

Few minutes,my Mom was on a call outside. A nurse came in to give me some pain relief drug and some sleeping tablets. I took it and slept off.

Maybe it was a trance or a dream,I don't know but it was a horrible sight.

*I saw my self getting up from my bed, I walked to the kitchen, picked a knife went to my bathroom and started stabbing myself!*

At that moment, I screamed,waking up. I was sweating profusely, my head was banging,I was breathing very fast,my body temperature was higher than normal.

Could this be real, my past is happening again. I thought i closed that page from my life.

My mom came to my rescue with the doctor. The doctor instructed the nurses to hold me also to inject me with some tranquillizer. Once the needle touches my skin and it releases its content, my body immediately responded by becoming calm. I was crying though, remembering what i passed through,how it took me time to clean myself up. How I shut myself from social life.

Am not going back to the past. No way.
I've stop my addiction and no going back. Anywhere this nightmare is coming from its going to stop. Luckily, I was not having papers today so I could stay all day in the hospital. Mary and Daniella came to see me,now that's caring friends. They also brought my share of the 30k.