Love...
It's funny how different this word is for everyone. For some its everything, for some its nothing, for me, it's anything. I baffle at its power and grimace at its dominance.
Growing up showered with everything I want, I never felt thirsty for love. My life was blossoming perfectly, yielding happiness and thriving smoothly until I stumbled upon a black hole called infatuation. It is funny how the world of fandom sucked me deep, I kept on falling in to it, day by day, month by month, year by year. And it's sad how I got eventually obsessed with you. why did I see your face floating somewhere on the internet? Why did I pause at your beautiful eyes and stared through my laptop screen? You are an idol, stuck in your stardom, submerged in your life. I was a fool that I looked at you. I was a fool that I fell for you. and that is how I knew what is love. Love was anything but you. Love is you.
My growing obsession poisoned me, I changed. I turned to someone I never expected to be. Swallowing the truth was difficult. It's always difficult. And the fact that you didn't even know that I am dying was like a venom for me. A venom so intense that it hexed my brain, crushed my heart, destroyed my life, and I forgot who I was before I saw you.
You are untouchable, untastable, divine. You are my elixir.
1.
BTS Aladin fansign event, 22nd September 2017
6:00 pm
The girl in black hoodie stood in line pushing her passport and the entry slip in her pocket after showing it to the guard at the entrance. Her feet were concrete in her red snickers and denim shorts that had an embroided butterfly sticker on them just like the one Kim Taehyung wore in the spring day MV.
Her seat number was called out and she marched through a black glass panelled door. The fan sign event was as dazzling as ever. A long blue satin-covered table was placed on a large far away platform enlightened with high spotlights. The arrangement had a huge "Love yourself" album cover as the background. And on the platform, behind the table seven angelic figures nestled neatly, glittering under the lights, smiling and waving at the long queue of fans that oozed in through the door. Without a doubt she knew- those were BTS.
The fans expressed their immense thrill by vigorously waving and smiling at the seven men and chanting out loudly their names in the fixed order. Most of them held gifts to be given to BTS- stuffed toys, accessories, jewellery, books, handmade crafts, jackets, caps, head bands, and so on. Some fortunate rich kids got pricey gifts like popular perfume brands, iPhones and watches. The complete aura in the room turned warm, vibrant and cheerful.
Despite of the overflowing enthusiasm around her, she didn't smile. She had cold expressions and her eyes hovered over the gifts the fans had brought and the way they moved around. As the line inched closer to the platform, a guard that had been standing near the queue asked her for her passport and the entry slip.
"이름 (name)?" he asked before her turn to step on the platform
"김 보라 (Kim Bora)" she replied in her international accent
"다 좋아 (alright)" he said handing her back her passport and studying her face for a second, "다음 차례 야 (it is your turn next)"
"고맙습니다 (thankyou)"
She walked up the platform and stood in front of a handsome smiling face.
"안녕하세요 (hello)" Kim Seokjin said in his gentle tone looking in her dark chocolate brown eyes, "How're you? You don't look happy."
"oh" she smiled quickly placing the album on the table for him to sign, "I'm good!"
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