Elixir

Chapter 32

Taehyung held her with a terribly intense gaze, studying her face with complete confusion and disturbance. She said nothing and paused her breathing. He made her wait painfully long till he finally spoke.

"Okay" he robotically spluttered, loosening his position, "As you wish."

The words stabbed her heart and she felt it ripping inside her in innumerable pointy shreds. Her eyes ached as she tried to contain the tears inside. She managed to get up to her feet, but trembled instantly. Taehyung's hands acted as reflexes and grabbed her shoulders. She snapped at him and released herself, under his helpless watch.

"Hope you will achieve what you want after this sad decision." He whispered

She took a deep breathe and let a teardrop slip down her cheek, "I don't know, I just have to stay away from you, because I don't want you to get hurt. The more we get involved into each other, the harder it will be to say good bye."

"But why are we going to say goodbye?" he asked knitting his eyebrows

"I am a spy, Tae, don't forget this. No matter how hard we try, I have to go away from you someday."

"I don't want you to. We will try- "

"Stop. This is getting hard for me. You don't get it, you don't understand!" she fought her shoulders off from his hands trying to grab them and stepped back.

"I don't understand? you really feel that way?" his voice was lined with a tinge of anger now

"Yes... "she turned around, showing her back at him, "Let me go. This is best for us."

She took a couple of weak steps towards his door and clutched the knob.

"Good bye" she said almost inaudibly

The moment she twisted the knob, she felt a sudden jerk on her shoulder, turning her around and warm lips touching hers aggressively quick. She hit her palms on his chest attempting to free herself but he jolted her against the door even more strongly and silenced her with deep kisses. Her hands gave up and rested on his fast-beating heart. She cried in his mouth, everything seemed unfair and painful. He caressed her softly, taking her in with tender strokes. Her eyes poured on huge teardrops that streamed down her chin and dripped on her hands that bridged their bodies. She couldn't fight him anymore; her love was too powerful and her decision of fleeing away from it was too weak.

With careful soft nudges, he pulled away and instantly hugged her.

"I will not let go of you" he said, his chin dabbing her head as he spoke, "You are the only one I have."

She cried even more. He squeezed her in his arms until she calmed down and started breathing at a normal pace. After several long-unspoken minutes, she pulled away and looked at his compassionate face.

"You feel better?" he asked, rubbing his thumbs over her puffy eyelids

"Yes, thank you." she shivered, "I'm sorry, I just- I don't- "

"I know. I am well aware of who you are and what you might be facing. But it doesn't change the fact that we are together. Keep on working as a spy, but you are mine forever."

She tilted her head and nodded, "No matter how hard I try, I can't get away from you."

He smiled and held her hand that hovered across his hair, she continued-

"Just don't break down if someday I go too far away from you and won't be able to return"

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8th December, 2017