Canadian heart break (A Tom Hiddleston story)

Loki at a kids birthday

*Persephone*
Tom pulls on his jacket before we leave, while I just step into my shoes and grab my keys. When we get outside he looks at me shaking his head. "Seriously you are not cold ?"

"You know my blood runs hot. I never freeze". I say with a shrug. I really don't unless I have to be outside for a long time or sit still.

He chuckles as we walk down the street, side by side. "Well yeah in London, which is cold enough.. but here you still never freeze ? You must have really hot blood".

"And you are still freezing even when its warm ?" I used to always tease him, the slightest breeze and his nipples was trying to poke through his shirt.

He makes a face. "Well I can't help it, at least I got a warm heart. I just need someone to keep the rest of me warm".

"And you still haven't found that one to keep you warm ?" I ask him. I always hoped to hear from him that he had found that special someone. No one deserved it more than him. I had been quite shocked when he had called me to say that he was going to propose to that ex of his. I had known it would never last, but I couldn't tell him. And I had been sad I couldn't be there but I had been 7 months pregnant. But luckily it never got that far.

He shakes his head slowly. "Nope and I probably never will. I had a girlfriend here recently, but it just wasn't meant to be".

"I am so sorry Tom, but I am sure you will find the right woman. I mean it is a wonder you haven't yet. Must be that no one is as amazing as you". I tell him. Really I don't get why no one has sunk their claws into him yet. I mean he is as perfect as they come.

He bite his lip and swallows. "Well, maybe I have met the right woman a long time ago.. maybe it just isn't a possibility..".

I am about to ask him if I know her, when the door 2 metres in front of us is thrown open by April, the mom hosting the birthday party. "Oh hi there Penny, come on in. We are just about finished".

"Hi April, this is Tom. Tom this is April, it's her daughter having her birthday". I says and they shake hands. Tom congratulating her with her daughter.

We walk inside. Tom is walking first and April grabs my shoulder, holding me back a step whispering. "So who is that tall sexy drink of handsome ?"

"That is my friend Tom.. and don't even think about it". I don't know why I ad the last part. April is nice and pretty and Tom needs to find someone. The idea just makes the hair stand up on my neck.

She looks at me curiously. "Why ? Is he married or something ? I didn't see a ring. What does he work with ?"

I shake my head. "No, he is single. He is an actor, he is staying with us filming a new movie. But he.. well he has had some bad luck in love, so he isn't to be played with. He is a good guy".

"And I don't deserve a good guy ? So not only tall, sexy and handsome, but also rich and famous ? What's the catch ? He is gay right ?" She ask looking after Tom.

I am close to saying yes, just so she won't try anything. "Well kind of famous, soon to be even more famous I guess. I don't know how much money he has, but he does donate a lot to charity. And no he isn't gay".

"Oh so a good guy on top of it". She smiles walking after him. "And you don't want me to at least give it a go. Admit you just want him all to yourself".

No it isn't like that.. I mean I love Tom, but not like that. I have Tyler. But if I have to be honest this is probably what I always do when it comes to Tom. I want him to find happiness, but every time a friend of mine have been interested I try keeping them away and every time he has introduced me to a girlfriend I have found her not good enough, but honestly he has never been good at picking girlfriends.

I just want him to find the right woman, someone worthy of him. I look at him, April is introducing him to all the other mothers that has arrived. Several of them casting him longing glances. He turns his head sending me one of those amazing smiles and I can't help smiling back.

"Mom, mom". Athena comes flying and I catch her, hugging her tightly. Listening to her telling me about all the amazing things they have played and eaten.

Tom walks over and I say softly. "So princess, do you remember mom telling you about her friend coming to stay with us ? This is moms friend Tom".

"Hi there Athena". Tom sends her a warm smile. "Oh you have gotten so big princess, I haven't seen you since you were like a baby".

My little girl squints her eyes looking at him, then she breaks out in a huge smile. "You really are Loki, mom right".

"Well sometimes I am yes". He says chuckling. "You haven't seen Thor around here have you ? Because I seem to have lost him".

She shakes her head, then she pads my arm. "Down mom, put me down". I does as she ask and she take Tom's hand. "Come, come see".

Tom of course goes with her, looking absolutely huge next to her. I follow them. Trying not to disturb as she explain that they needed to find Thor in the playroom.

She pulls him into another room, were 5 little girls and 2 boys are playing, dressed up as disney princesses and superheroes. And Athena points. "See Thor".

"There he is, good thing you found him for me". He says, and sits down on the floor as the other kids come over, looking at him curiously.

Athena tabs him on the shoulder. "You know is just dress-up right ? He really Ryan not Thor". She says and I can't help giggling. Then she looks at the other kids. "This the real Loki, like really really".

I watch him play with the little kids as April steps up beside me. "So how long did you say that you had know him ?"

"Well just about 11 years now. So a long time". I say, watching the kids giggle and squeal as he plays with them.

She looks at me raising one eyebrow. "Sorry to ask so blatantly. Why didn't you ..like marry him. I mean nothing wrong with Tyler, but God this one is a real dreamboat".

"Well, when we met he had a girlfriend, then I had a boyfriend, then life got in the way.. and well then I met Tyler.. It probably just weren't meant to happen". I say looking at Tom.

April has this smile I don't really get on her face. "Sooo never even tempted ? Not curious at all of how it would be had you choosen him instead ?"

"Of course not". I say, lying through my teeth. Of course I have thought about it, more than once, a lot more than once to be honest. But I can't say that out loud.