Canadian heart break (A Tom Hiddleston story)

Facing off

*Tom*
I try to hold back. I don't want to pressure her. But I still want to show her how much I truly love her. So after a couple of drinks I take the stage. No announcements, I know she will know. I pick 'Just the way you are' by Bruno Mars, both because I know it is one of her favorites and because well it is quite fitting.

She smiles at me, shaking her head slightly. But it isn't a no shake, it is more like a 'you do know you are impossible right' and that, I guess, is kind of a good head shake, everything considered.

When I come down April steps over to me. She places a hand on my chest. "You really have a great voice Tom".

"Uh thanks". My eyes are glued to Kitty, wondering if I should do nothing or go to her. Suddenly my confidence is slipping. And I don't like the way April is touching me.

She turns her head and look at Kitty. "Well I see there is nothing that can pull you from her. What a shame really. But I truly hope she makes the right choice here".

"Well so do I, but it has to be her choice". I say. Moving to the bar. Honestly I don't know what to do with myself. I feel that this evening might very well be were it is all decided. The day my future will be drawn. And I might be downing the drinks a bit to fast.

After about an hour Kitty comes over. Resting her hand on my arm. She leans in. "I wish it was just an easy choice Tom. I do care a lot about you, I think I might even be in love with you. But it's so scary. Leaving everything I have know for so long".

"It's okay Kitten, I get it.. I should never have said anything.. but you know me, always screwing things up". I blurt out. Okay maybe I need to stop with the drinks.

She looks at me, trying to contain a smile. "You might want to hold back on the drinks stretch.. but no I am glad you told".

"I .. fuck I know I am putting you in a bad position". I bite my lip, it starts getting to much, the urge to hold her in my arms. "It's just that I love you so much, I can't keep it in anymore".

*Persephone*
My heart does a summersault. I mean one thing is knowing it, but hearing him say it, it is something entirely different. I just pull myself into his arms. Feeling him hug me so tight I almost can't breathe. Resting my head against his shoulder.

I can't fight it. I have been battling my feelings for to long, thinking it was the right thing to do. But I fear I could hurt him and the last thing I want to is hurting him. I look up at him, his eyes catching mine and time stands still.

His tongue runs over his lips and his arm holds me close to him. And it feels so right knowing that he is going to kiss me. Right now that is all I wish for. I don't care about the consequences. My heart is feeling like it is unfolding like a flower.

Just as he leans down to kiss me, there is a loud whistle and Tyler calls. "Penny where are you ? I got a song for you babe".

Tom pulls away knowing everyone is looking for me and I sigh and step forward. "I am right here Tyler, what is it ?"

Tyler smiles at me and I feel my heart sink as he start singing 'Marry you' by Bruno Mars. Is he serious ? Is this supposed to be a proposal ? How on earth do I manage to tell him no in front of everyone ?

When the song ends and Tyler walks towards me I start to panic. I can't do this, it's to much and I just know I am going to say or do something really inappropriate. But just as Tyler reaches me Tom grabs my hand. "Come on we need to do our song, please".

I send Tyler an apologetic smile and let Tom pull me up to the microphone. Our song, the one we always used to do together at karaoke nights even though Tyler hates it. I tried singing it with him once but we sounded horried, our voices simply don't harmonize.

Tom squeezes my hand, and I send him a soft smile, hoping he can see how grateful I am for the delay. No one else seems to realise what is going on. 'Something stupid' starts, our song and I once again ask myself if that is what I am about to do.. something stupid.. I am sure some people will say it is.

As always our voices blend perfectly, and looking into his eyes as he sing those words I know what I have to do. I know where my heart belongs. And I am so grateful he didn't push me for a decision. After this I need a talk with Tyler and it ain't going to be pretty I fear.

Actually I don't get why I have been fighting it all these years. I guess I just always expected that I was just a friend to him. And every time I thought about what my true feelings were something happened. He got a girlfriend, I got pregnant, he got a new girlfriend and so on.

The song finishes and Tom leans in giving me a soft peck on the lips. It is far from the first time he does that. But this time it sends sparks through me, making me let out a soft moan.

Tyler is waiting for me, holding out his hand toward me, glaring at Tom. "Well if it is okay with you Thomas, there is something I would like to ask my girlfriend".

"Actually it isn't". Tom says and suddenly everyone is staring at him. Shit he is more drunk than I realised. I can see it in his eyes now. Unfortunately Tyler is pretty drunk too and I try to signal to Tom to stop. There is no need to escalate this. But he doesn't catch on. "Before Kitty makes her decision I got something to say too and what better way than to do it with a song ?"

Tyler is searing and I want to crawl into a hole. Don't get me wrong, under any other circumstances he would have melted me with the most heartfelt version of 'If I let you go' by Westlife. But right now is just the worst moment possible.

Everyone is whispering and after about half the song Tyler pulls the plug to the karaoke system. Not that Tom cares, he finishes the verse. The he puts down the microphone, stepping towards Tyler. "Do we have a problem ?"

"What do you think Tom ? You come into my house and moves in on my woman. Who the hell do you think You are ?". Tyler hisses back at him.

I have never seen Tom like this, he seem to grow several inches. "Wake up Tyler, you don't make her happy and now you try to backhand her with a public proposal.. if you knew her the least you would know she hates that".

"Like you could make her more happy.. If she wanted you don't you think she had chosen you years ago ?" Tyler steps closer to Tom, not letting his size scare him. This could go really wrong.

I step in between them putting one hand on each man's chest. I look at Tom first. "You go to bed and sleep that of. We are going to talk tomorrow when you are sober. And do not make more of a scene now".

Tom hangs his head and I turn towards Tyler. "Don't smirk, you are sleeping in the other guest room tonight. And don't you dare touch Tom. Oh and don't you dare propose to me like this".

"Now of to bed or I swear I am gonna kick both of you out in the snow". I tell them. Tom hangs his head and nods, then he leaves the room. Tyler tries to grab me but I step away. "Bed now, final warning, and remember guest room".

He looks annoyed but leave and I tell our friends and neighbours how sorry I am about their behaviour, before walking everyone out saying goodbye and heading to bed myself.

I am laying in my bed my eyes closed, wondering what to do. I had been so sure about wanting to give Tom a chance, to go with my hearts desire and then he went and did something that stupid. I drift of to a troubled sleep, filled with weird and unsettling dreams.