Canadian heart break (A Tom Hiddleston story)

Needing reasurence

*Tom*
"Be a good girl and go with Laura down to get some breakfast". I tell Kitty. Both because she needs to keep up her strength and well I kind of want to have a moment without her here.

Laura folds her arm around her shoulder. "Come on sweetie. Nothing bad will happen to him in the next half hour".

She reluctantly leave, and Zac comes to sit on the edge of the bed. "So how are you really holding up ? If we peal of that facade of being okay".

"I am dying Zac". It just spills out. "I fucked up everything and didn't listen. Just when I thought I had everything I am going to lose it all".

Zac puts a hand on my shoulder. "You are the strongest person I know and probably the best one too. You will get through this. You are not going to get beaten by this. And if it makes you feel any better I would most likely have done exactly as you did.. I guess it's a man thing or maybe an actor thing".

"Do you know how small the odds are for me getting a heart in time ? I have already beaten the odds twice, I think I have used up my share of good luck Zac". I know my voice is breaking. The thought of having to say goodbye to everyone, to not get to see Athena grow up, to not get any kids of my own, it is just to much.

Zac just pulls me into his arms and I shamelessly sob into his shoulder, while he just pad my back and tells me it is okay and that I just have to keep believing as I always do.

I am hicksting, trying to reel in my feelings, but it is impossible and I mumble against Zac's shoulder. "I.. I can't stop it. I'm sorry..."

"It's okay, it's okay. Just breathe. You don't have to be sorry for anything. I've got you". Zac says softly, stroking my back.

When I finally get myself under control, I look at Zac drying my eyes. "Thank you Zac. Thank you for being such a good friend".

"Don't make me blush Tom. I have done nothing but what any friend would do". He says with a small smile. Just as the girls walk back in.

I hold my arms out to Kitty and she comes over, letting me fold my arms around her. I have to fight, for her and for my family, both the one I have and the one I hope to have. "Did you get some breakfast?"

"Yeah I managed to eat a bit". She says sending me a impish smile and Laura nods when I look at her, telling me that she did.

*Zac*
"When is mom and Tom coming home ?" Athena asks, when I carry her up to bed. I told Kitty that she didn't need to worry about Athena, she should just stay with Tom. Luckily for me Laura had some time off she needed to use, so she is taken a short holiday helping me out.

I weight my words for a second before answering her. "In 2 or 3 days sweetie. The doctors have to make Tom better first".

"He is coming home ? Not like daddy being away forever". She looks up at me and I can see one wrong word will have her in tears.

Damn how to answer that. I mean there is a real possibility of Tom dying, I am aware of that even if I try to pretend differently. "Tom's heart is sick, but they are doing everything they can to make him better. If I could I would give him my heart".

"Me too". She say, hugging me tightly, as I carry her into her room, and tugging her into bed. I really hope that Tom will get a new heart in time.

Luckily see don't seem to have a problem with me tucking her in, and 20 minutes, a story and a song later she is sleeping and I can tiptoe down to Laura in the living-room. She is sitting on the couch watching tv and I flop down with my head in her lap.
"You are so good with her shmoopie, you should really get a couple of kids". She says, running a hand into my hair, ruffling it up.

I enjoy how her fingers run over my scalp. "I'd be happy to have a whole throng of them.. what do you say we start practicing now ?"

She let out a small scream as I grab her and try to pull her on top of me, sending us both on the floor sprawling. "Zac you.. you scoundrel".

"Oh I am, am I ? It wasn't me who started the baby talk.. I mean who else would I get them with ?" I tell her, kissing wetly down her neck, making her giggle and squirm.

*Laura*
Zac's hands is all over me and his mouth is leaving wet sloppy kisses on my neck. I still can't really wrap my head around him wanting to be with me. But he seems to mean it and is even talking about making it public. "Zac not here on their floor".

"Why not ? We can make the first one here, the next in the kitchen and then one in the bedroom". He mumbles against my neck, making warm chills shoot up my back.

I push him of me and get up. "Because this isn't our home your horn dog.. no sex anywhere else but the bed as long as we are staying here. There is also a kid sleeping who could wake up and walk in on us".

"Okay okay". He says springing to his feet. "What do you say we go to bed real early ? I could use a good long night of sleep".

"Well goodnight then Zac, I might stay up a little longer and watch tv". I say with a teasing smile and he knows I am teasing him.

He growls deeply and turns off the tv, before grabbing me, flipping me up into his arms. "You know I don't want to sleep". Then he carries me to his room.