kind of a badass//Carl Gallagher

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Carl walked over to me, taking my hand in his. He leaned over and asked if that was Mickey. I nodded. He smiled wide and hugged me. "Thank you." I shrugged smiling. Lip had been eyeballing me from across the room. I tried to ignore it. "Well, Ian is in my bed so maybe... we can go to your place and..." I shook my head at him. "Can we just hang out? Like around here?" He shrugged. "yeah i guess we can hang around here." He sounded a bit disappointed. I mean, like i said before i want more than just a fuck buddy. I was high so it didn't phase me much. Next thing i know, I'm sitting on the couch watching Gotham with Carls arm wrapped around me. I cuddled into him. Fiona was on the other side of the couch gossiping with Veronica about my uncle's sex life. On my soul, I was blocking that conversation out. Lip and Trevor were upstairs with Ian. Liam was doing god knows what with Frank, who i've only met when he was unconscious. So, I guess you could say it was a normal few hours for everyone at the Gallagher home. 

That was until a mans scream and the sound of something shattering against the wall came from upstairs. Everyone downstairs jumped up and ran up the stairs to find Lip and Trevor, attempting, to pin Ian against the wall. Ian had blue veins popping from his forehead. Carl pushed past me an helped them pin him to the wall. Manly. V spoke up first. "what the hell is going on here?" She put a hand on her hip sassily. "Mickey called again. From a different number. He said something about how if Ian is taking his heart he has to take something from Ian too." Lip guessed. Fiona walked up to her brother. A caring expression on her face i knew all too well. She was worried but had to be the strong one. She wrapped her arms around him, then placed her hands on his red cheeks. She made direct eye contact. "Meds?" He shook his head. "Forgot." He said through clenched teeth. V took the liberty of rounding up his meds while i got him a glass of water. He took the meds and sat on his bed with an angry thud. 

"Give him a few minutes alone to let the meds kick in." V told everyone. Lip walked over to the doorway, walking past me stating, "D sure knows a hell of a lot about that." I wanted to punch him but there were bigger problems and that would only add to them. So, I rolled my eyes and put a smile on. "Feel better Ian." I walked out of the room. Carl followed. "what was that all about?" He pulled my arm looking me in the eyes. "Nothing. Lip is just being Lip." He nodded taking a deep breath. "Come on you cannot tell me you dont trust me with Lip." He shook his head.  "No, I do. Sorry babe." He took my hand and pulled me out of the room. 

we went downstairs and outside to the back porch. We sat at the top step. "So, whats up?" I asked breaking the silence. "That was pretty awkward today." I scrunched my brows at him, taking his chin in my hands making him look me in the eyes. "What was my love?" He smirked at the wording. "Tye." I sighed still holding his chin with my fingers. "I know. I'm sorry." He kissed me gently. "It's fine. Hey, lets go to the alibi and see what Kev and V are up to. Maybe get some drinks." I nodded at him standing up. "Hop on my back my lady so i may take you to the car." I rolled my eyes laughing at his odd renaissance accent. But, he stepped off the porch and i hopped on his back. I kissed his cheek before he set me down next to the car. 

I love you. I didn't say it out loud. I'd meant to. As weird as it feels i did. I think i did. "I love you." That wasnt me. It was him. I scrunched brows. "so, free drinks." Was all i managed to say." why couldn't i just say it? Delilah Baker is not a chicken. Maybe because i've ever said that before to anyone who wasn't family. Barely family even. "Yeah." He put on an obviously forced smile and got in the driver's side. The whole car ride was awkward, and the moment we stepped into the Alibi, Carl went to the bathroom. "V." I called over. She walked over to me smiling. "How are things?" I sighed and took the empty cup from behind the bar and took the bottle of vodka, pouring me a glass. "whats wrong?" She set the washrag down. I took a giant gulp, the meds not being in my system anymore. "He said he loves me." I spoke with a little bit of irritation. I wasn't irritated at him. "That's a bad thing?" She smiled at me, serving lenard then moving back to me. "No. I just... You know me." She frowned. "Oh no.... you didn't say it back. Do you?" I nodded at her and let my head slip from the grip of my hand to clonk on the bar. "Oh honey, it's not your fault you're so damaged." I lifted my head up and shot her an offended glance. "What the hell V!" I laughed. She shrugged and moved over to serve another person. 

Carl walked out of the bathroom. He sat next to me. "So, i see you started without me." I could feel the awkward tension and i disliked it very much. "Will you excuse me?" I walked to the bathroom, frantically typing on my phone to Riley. I so did not want to be sober at the moment.  She answered within seconds. They were on their way. I stayed in the bathroom until they arrived. 

"So, what happened?" Riley entered the bathroom, cringing at the weird smell. I filled her in. "What? you two are toxic." I rolled my eyes. "No, it's just, i've never had that connection with someone." She nodded and gave me my own baggy. "We started buying our own bags once 2 stopped being enough." She answered my confused facial expression. "I see." I hadn't even paid any attention to how many i was putting into my mouth. i just knew i wanted this feeling, any feeling, to stop so maybe i could get the courage to say it. 

I kept them in my mouth, walked out to the bar, and took a drink from the cup i poured, washing down the pills. "So, Baby you know my friends. They wanted to play a game of pool. You down?" I walked over to the pool table. He followed along with the guys and Riley. "so, Riley and i will play first." I took a pool stick and set the balls up, letting Riley break. 

Within a few minutes, I became carefree and happy. Perfect. I was winning too. Every time one of us made a shot we would kiss our significant. I had just won the match, Carl cheered and kissed me, i had an arm around him, then it went limp. I went limp. everything was blurry. I hit the ground. The last thing i heard was someone shouting. I wasn't trying to kill myself. I was just being careless when I shouldn't have been. 

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Authors note:

So im kind of getting boring huh? Next chapter though, you wont want to miss. an old character may return. Anyways, I'm not one of those writers who makes the characters suicidal. I mean she was once but that was a one time thing. this was just a drug thing. I hate when writers sit there. "oh she was suicidal she wanted to kill herself but he loved her dearly and took care of her" nah. Thats some childish shit. Anyways. I love you omg 33.3K insane. I hope i dont disappoint any of you! 

~Delilah B. xx