JUNGKOOK IS DIFFERENT.

19/09

i'll be his shield

jeongguk has been a lot more close to me.
he really likes holding my arm.
with both of his hands,
he wraps himself around my elbow.
almost like a koala! it's cute.

he likes hiding behind me too,
putting his head at my shoulder blades.
i can feel his breath of me when he does that,
warm and heavy.

jeongguk is smaller than me.
so he likes to cower behind me.
i want him to be strong,
but being strong means you'll get hurt.

and for some reason,
i don't want him to get hurt.
ever.

whenever i see him in his class,
he looks hollow.
staring at the board,
eyes empty.
he's not smiling,
wearing a blank expression.

sometimes he'll look at the other kids,
who cup their hands over their mouths as they whisper about him.
he props his head in his hand,
and stares blankly at them.
but his eyes shows he's hurting,
his eyes swirl with sadness.

so he'll turn away, hiding behind nothing.

but when i'm around,
i never see these expressions.
he'll smile, big, giant, happy smiles.
his eyes are bright,
like a spring day.

and when we hear the whispering,
he'll hold my shoulder.
i know when he does that, he's hurting.
he wants to look away,
because he doesn't want them to see.
he doesn't want them to see
they are breaking him.

but this time, he has something to hide behind.