JUNGKOOK IS DIFFERENT.

27/09

running thoughts, running

when i was at my locker today,
i heard from one of my old friends that
jungkook was being beat up at his locker.
i heard from him that
jungkook supposedly deserved it.

i slammed my locker, and ran.
ran faster than my feet could travel.
ran across the hallways,
not looking up at anything.
ran past familiar faces, past traitors.
ran to jungkook.

and he was right,
jungkook was cowering,
holding his arms above his head
as kids kicked him.

tears were streaming down his face,
but he was silent.
not shouting for help,
not shouting for them to stop.
he just sat there and took it.

they kept chanting this word,
it began with a "f."
but i don't know the word.
it didn't seem like a nice word, though.

so i ran at them.
i never felt so mad.
i couldn't control my body,
in blurs of movements,
i felt my fists colide with bones,
and heard bodies hit lockers.

i couldn't stop myself.
my mind kept running,
running so fast,
it wouldn't stop running.
i couldn't stop running,
not after what they did.

i ran my legs into them,
i ran my elbows into them,
i ran my fists into them.
and i kept running,
hitting, and hitting, and hitting.
screams all around me,
they echoed.
echo, echo, echo.

it was pitch black,
but i wasn't scared.
no.
i ran straight into the darkness,
and fought.

but i was pulled out.
jungkook grabbed me,
arms shaking, so weak.
"it's ok. you don't have to hurt them.

i deserved it." he smiled.

i stared at my hands, smeared with blood.
and i looked down,
unconscious bodies at my feet,
with bruises blossoming along their faces, like plagues.
and from their noses or mouths, blood poured gently,
dribbling down to their throats.

i picked one guy up by the hair,
and he groaned softly as i lifted him to his feet.
he glanced at me,
horror spreading across his eyes.

this person, this horrible person.
he made jungkook think he deserved this.
he made jungkook hate himself.
he made jungkook different.

my mind ran.
and i couldn't stop myself.
i began smashing his head into the locker.
over, and over, and over, and over, and over
and over, and over, and over, and over.

jungkook screamed.