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Jack's POV

"Autumn you gotta let me go!" I yelled and took a step in the direction that Lacy went but she stepped in front of me.

"Jack you know how she gets. You just have to give her a couple of minutes to calm down. Go fin dher in like ten minutes, she should be a little better by then. If you go now, she'll take out her anger on you and say things she doesn't mean. And you'll get hurt." She said and I rolled my eyes.

"What if she hurts herself again!?" I yelled at her and she shook her head.

"She won't. She hasn't done that in over a year." She said and I walked into the hotel room where Cameron was.

"Dude!?" I yelled and he looked at me. "What the fuck was that!?" I yelled and he shrugged.

"I don't know. I didn't think it would go to that extent." He said and I rolled my eyes again.

"Cameron I'm not trying to have sex with her. You know that right? I know what happened with Casey messed you guys up, because I witnessed it with you. But seriously? Cameron you shouldn't have blown up on her like that." I said and he shook his head.

I shook my head and walked out of the hotel room. I turned to my left but fucking Autumn stopped me again.

"Jack what the hell I just said that-"

"Taylor you better move your damn girlfriend before I move her myself." I said, my voice scaring me a little bit, and Taylor moved Autumn from in front of me, to beside me.

I walked down the hallway before Autumn's voice stopped me.

"You really care about her, don't you?" She asked and I turned around.

"I've been in love with her since the beginning. And I will be until the end." I said and kept walking away.

Lacy's POV

After making sure that nobody was in the bathroom, I went looking for sharp things. I had to. I needed to. I haven't in way to long and it's the only thing that works. I found an eye shadow pallet that somebody had left on the sink and broke the plastic top off and broke it in half. I sighed in relief when I felt the sharp tip and dragged it against my wrist. At this point, it wasn't about the fight with Cameron. This was about all of the pain that built up in my life. It all came crashing down on me and I just, couldn't take it anymore.

I dragged the sharp object across my wrist about five more times before the door swung open.

"Lacy!" Jack yelled and I cried even harder. "Lacy what the hell." He said, more to himself than me, and took off his shirt before he wrapped it around my wrist. Did I mention that this just happened to be the day that he wore a white v-neck. I sighed before he pulled me into his bare chest.

He picked me up, bridal style, and carried me out of the bathroom. I held his shirt against my wrist and just sobbed into his chest. I haven't cried this hard in a while. I cry often, because I'm an emotional person. Most of the time it's over movies and shit. But right now, I sobbed like I hadn't in three years. It was bad.

"Lacy!" Autumn's voice called from across the hall. "Oh my god Lacy what the hell!?" She yelled and I cried even harder.

"I fucking told you. And you didn't listen to me. 'Don't go after her Jack. She won't do anything'." He said, mocking Autumn and she made an odd noise.

"So you're saying this is my fault?" She asked and Jack rolled his eyes.

He kicked the hotel room door open and walked inside. He sat down on my bed and leaned against the head board. I sat in his lap and sobbed into his chest, gripping his shirt to my wrists. They burned, badly.

Jack rubbed circles on my back while I cried and repeated. "Shh it's okay. You'll be okay." over and over again.

I felt a jolt of pain in my stomach that made me sit up straight. When I get too upset, my stomach starts to hurt, and I never found out why. I sniffled and looked at Jack before choking out a sob. "Jack it hurts." I said and he nodded. "It hurts." I sobbed and saw his eyes well up.

"I know it does baby. I know." He said and hugged me tightly. "It'll be okay." He said and I choked out another sob.

"Make it stop." I begged and cried harder.

Jack's POV

"Make it stop." She begged and sobbed into my chest. My tears escaped and I put my forehead on the top of her head.

"I wish I could baby." I said quietly and cried with her. She sobbed loudly, causing me to srew my eyes shut.

"Jack please. It hurts." She said and I nodded.

"I know. I know it does Lacy." I said and she gripped her wrist tighter.

I kissed her forehead lightly, knowing that it calms her nerves, before rubbing small circles on her back.

Eventually, Lacy fell asleep in my lap and I unravelled my shirt, exposing her wrists.

The cuts were a little sloppy since she had to grab something that she found inside of a bathroom. But they were deep. Oh boy, were they deep. Lacy had the worst history of shit like this. he did it for so long before anyone found out about it that she got used to cutting with her left and right hand. She cut deep sometimes, and light sometimes. On her thighs, and on her wrists. But these new ones, they might have been the worst.

I felt myself grow angry and grip the shirt tighter before storming out of Lacy's room and into the one that Cameron, Nash, Taylor and Shawn shared.

I kicked the door open, holding this one white shirt up, that was now covered in blood stains. Yeah, those weren't coming out.

"Do you see the shit you cause!?" I yelled and caught everyone's attention. Shit. Everyone was in here.

"What is that?" He asked in a small voice, standing up from the bed and wandering over towards me.

"It's my shirt. I was wearing that. But I took it off when I saw our sister, holding something sharp to her wrist with blood pouring out of the open cut." I said and he winced.

"So this is.... This her blood?" He asked and I nodded.

"A lot of it too Cam. I don't know how you two are going to fix this shit, but don't make it worse. If you're going to yell at her, don't talk to her. If you're going to make a rude remark, keep your damn mouth shut. You can't do this to her anymore Cameron. I just spent an hour listening to her beg me to make the pain go away. And I couldn't. And it tore me up knowing that there was nothing that I could do to take her pain away!" I yelled. My voice was shaky, and I started crying again. Autumn was crying, and Taylor was comforting her.

"We've all known her for so long. Some of us longer than others. And I might not have been the first to know her, but damn do I love her. A hell of a lot. And it hurt." I paused, pulling my hand up to my lips to hold back the sob that was forming. "It hurt, to watch her cry and beg me to take the pain away when I had no way of doing that." I said and he nodded.

"Yeah uhm.." Cameron started, clearly speechless. "Yeah, I'll go fix it." He said and I put my hand in front of him.

"She's sleeping." I said and he nodded.

"Yeah then.. Just let me know when she wakes up." He said and I nodded.

I started walking toward the door again before I was stopped.

"Hey Jack?" Cameron asked. I turned to look at him before swallowing the lump in my throat. "Thank you. For everything you've done for her." He said and I nodded before walking out.