perfect | jack gilinsky ✓

twelve

After a week or so, we had everything cleared up. Cameron and I were back to normal, as well a everyone else. Jack has been acting a little weird though. Sometimes he wouldn't take his eyes off of me, and other times, he wouldn't look at me. Today, was one of the days that his eyes never left me.

We were on stage, at Magcon in Washington D.C. and the boys were just fooling around. I was wearing one of Jack's hoodies. Just a plain black hoodie, since the fans haven't found out about my "situation" as the boys all it. I was wearing light washed jeans and red vans, with a red beanie, an outfit I threw together in five minutes.

"Hey guys, I have to pee I'll be right back." I said into the mic and everyone laughed.

"Autumn go with her." Jack said, eye glued to me the entire time.

Autumn let go of Taylor's hand and walked towards me, making me raise an eyebrow.

"I don't need a babysitter every minute of the damn day." I said and Jack took a step towards me.

"Yes you do." He said into his mic and the crowd grew silent.

"No, I don't. I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be fine." I said and turned around.

He grabbed my arm and looked at me with an angered face, that honestly scared the shit out of me.

"The last time you went into the bathroom by yourself, I had to carry you out of it with my shirt wrapped around your wrist to stop the bleeding." He said and gasps were heard from every direction.

"You're such an ass." I said and ran of the stage and into the bathroom.

Autumn came in right after me, but I walked into the stall to pee. "Lacy he didn't mean it. It slipped." She said and I scoffed.

"Sure it did." I said and she sighed.

"Lacy he's really sorry about it." She said as I walked out of the stall and over to the sink.

"I don't care. Really. I'm fine." I said and she sighed.

"No you're not." She said and I nodded while drying my hands.

"I'm fine." I lied and she punched the wall with her right hand.

"Dammit Lacy you are not! Stop lying to us. Everyone knows you're not okay. The just don't want to say anything because they feel like you're going to do it again!" She yelled and I walked passed her.

"You too huh?" I asked and she rolled her eyes.

"Lacy, open your eyes and realize that none of us are against you. All of us feel bad because we don't know how you'll react to anything at this point." She said as we reached the stage.

"I don't need you to feel sorry for me!" I yelled and the music that was playing, stopped and all eyes turned to us.

"Well then stop doing dumb shit that makes us feel sorry for you!" She yelled and I let out an amused laugh.

"You know what? I don't need this shit. I don't need to be nagged my boyfriend who insists that I'm never alone. Or my brother that feels the need to be over my shoulder every minute of the damn day! I don't need to be watched when I use the bathroom, or take a shower. I can cut my own food during dinner. I'm going home. I don't want to deal with any of this shit anymore. I'm sorry I'm not perfect." I said and shook my head.

"That's why I love you! That's why we all love you Lacy." Jack said and I sighed. "Because you're not perfect. You're not perfect, I'm not perfect, and our relationship sure as hell isn't perfect. But look at us. I love you Lacy. And I know you love me too. You can't give up on me now Lace. Please don't give up on me." He begged and I let a tear fall.

"I'm not giving up on you. I'm not giving up on our relationship. I'm giving up on Magcon. I can't keep getting up everyday and thinking about what to wear in front of all of these people. I can't wander how I'm going to cover up these shits." I said revealing my wrist. "Jack I love you, and we'll always be together. But I can't come to these things anymore. It's too much. I just need to go home." I said and started walking off stage.

"Lacy!" Aaron screamed and I turned around, surprised that he said something. Aaron was the quietest one. "Stop. We love you. All of us. Don't go home Lacy. Jack's trying to protect you. Because when you fell asleep that night, he came into our room crying and screaming about how he was crushed by the fact that he couldn't take your pain away. He could barely live with himself when you asked for him to stop the pain because he couldn't. Cameron's trying to make sure he doesn't say something stupid again and all of us? We're trying to let you know that you're not alone Lacy. We're all here to help you. You just have to be willing to let us help you." He said and everyone started clapping.

I ran up to him and hugged him tightly. "Thank you." I said and he nodded, hugging me back just as tightly.

I let go of Aaron and found Jack standing there with his hands shoved into his pockets and a small smile on his lips. I laughed lightly before standing on my toes and kissing him hard.

"Alright that's enough." Cameron said and we all laughed.

"Can you do that cool back flip thing with Lame and Cam?" Matt asked and I laughed.

"Sure Matt." I said and Autumn walked in front of me while Cam walked behind me. Cameron stood straight up, Autumn bent down, and all of the guys moved.

I jumped onto Autumn's back with one foot and pushed myself off, bending backwards. I extended my arms and placed my hands on Cameron's shoulders before landing on my feet, behind him.

Everyone cheered and I bowed.

"There she is." Jack said and I laughed.

Here I am.