perfect | jack gilinsky ✓

sixteen

I wiped my wet cheeks before locking my phone. Hate. Everywhere. It's kind of ridiculous at this point. That the fans think that I'm going to leave Jack because of this shit. I was tired of it. Everything. I was tired of everything they say. Autumn gets it too. It's ridiculous.

I pulled out my camera and set it on my tripod before I started recording.

"It's ridiculous." I said looking at the wall beside me, not ready to look at the camera. "It's ridiculous how you guys think that the more you send me hate, the closer it brings me to breaking up with Jack. But guess what, hate to break it to you, but that's not happening." I said and looked into the camera.

"It's insane how you guys say how much you love him, and all of the other guys, but target the people closest to them. It's stupid as hell when you send me hate about being Cameron's sister. I'm sorry, I can't change that. I can't change the face that I'm related to him. I also can't change the fact, that I'm unbelievably in love with Jack. It's mind blowing how blind you people are. Because honestly, the hate's just stupid at this point. I'm not going to read a death threat from an 11 year old and break up with Jack. I'm not going to leave him. I'm not going to leave my house and cut off communication with my older brother. It's incredible how bad this is getting." I said and wiped my eyes.

"Let's play out a scenario. I read this shit, maybe cut my wrists a couple times and leave Jack. That would make Jack unbelievably depressed. Is that what you guys want? For Jack to stop being happy because you dislike me? You don't even know me!" I yelled and shook my head.

"Same goes with Autumn. I don't know why you think that she's a bad person, because she obviously isn't. Taylor's happy. That's all you should care about. Jack's happy. That's all you should care about. Stop targeting the people they love. It's incredibly stupid." I said and felt my cheeks get wet again.

"But for those of you who send nothing but nice things to us, thank you. Thank you for telling me how wonderful I am, or how cute Jack and I because I appreciate it." I said and wiped my cheeks for the last time.

"Hate's dumb. It doesn't mke any sense and it doesn't make you look cool. So cut the shit out." I said and turned my camera off. I didn't bother to edit it before I uploaded it to YouTube.

I'd probably get more hate from it, but honestly, I didn't care at this point. These people sent me over the edge and I was sick of it.

I laid down on my bed and stared at the ceiling before I heard my front door open and close, followed by my bedroom door.

"Babe." Jack softly said before laying next to me.

I didn't realize that I was still crying until he wiped the spot underneath my eyes.

"Babe I'm never going to leave you, you know that right?" He asked and I nodded before sniffling. "I love you." He said and hugged me.

"I love you too." I said and choked out a sob.

My bedroom door swung open and an angry Cameron stomped inside.

He grabbed my phone and my camera before storming out.

I shot up, and followed behind him, watching him set the camera up in the living room and sitting on the couch.

He opened my phone and started talking. "Fat. Ugly. Stupid. Worthless. Slut. Only a portion of what you guys call my sister. Just want you guy to know that if you're sending my sister this shit, I don't like you. I don't care how much you love me, but the minute you send something rude to my sister, I lose all of respect for you. She's not worthless. And she's not fat. She's actually quite skinny. She doesn't eat much anymore because of shit like this. My sister has a history. A history that nobody wants to repeat. I went through it with her, when I was home. I left a lot back then because I didn't know how to handle my sister self harming." He said and covered his face for a couple of minutes.

"Jack went through it with her. Jack was there for her when nobody else was and that's what made them so close." He said and I smiled through my tears. "She does deserve Jack. And he deserves her. And I can't process the thought of them separating because they're one of the strongest couples I've ever witnessed. My sister's not perfect. Jack thinks she is, because nobody's perfect until you fall in love with them. I've seen the angry side of my sister. I've seen the depressing side and I've seen the broken side. I've seen the happy side though. And boy, she's the biggest ball of sunshine when she's happy." He said and I couldn't help but laugh through my tears.

Cameron turned around and saw me standing at the bottom of the staircase. I walked around the couch and hugged him tightly. "I love you." I sobbed and he cried back.

"I love you too Lacy. I really do." He said and then he ended the video.

He uploaded his to YouTube and for the rest of the day, the three of us just talked. Abut everything we could think of.