Tell Me Why - Anthony Trujillo

3

Jake

I watched Raegan as she was staring down at her phone with a sad look on her face. With a sigh I walked about behind her.

She hadn't really been herself since she came back from tour. I really wanted to know what happened with her and Landon but I didn't want pressure her into telling me. If she wasn't ready then I had to wait.

I glanced down at her phone seeing her scrolling trough her instagram, staring at pictures of her and Landon. "Do you still like him?" I spoke up. She gasped and looked up at me with wide eyes. "You scared me." She sighed when she realized it was me. I sat down next to her. "Do you?" I repeated. "No." She shook her head, looking down at her hands. "I thought you guys were happy? I thought you were happy?" I questioned. "I was.." She trailed off. She spoke quietly, her voice soft. "What changed Rae?" I asked. "He changed." She said it so quietly I almost couldn't understand. What did she mean with that? I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "What do you mean?" I asked her. "It doesn't matter." Rae sighed, trying to avoid the subject.

I knew I said I didn't want to pressure her but I was worried. "It does matter Rae because clearly you're not okay and I'm worried. If you don't want to tell me what happened, that's fine..but please tell me how I can help you. I hate seeing you sad." I told her. "I don't know Jake. All you can do is keep me busy..cause if my thoughts get to me..that's when it gets bad." She said. I sighed and pulled her into me. I hated this. I hated that someone had once again hurt her so bad that she had been broken. "Love doesn't exist. Not for me. Either I'm not capable of loving or I'm not lovable." She mentioned as she wrapped her arms around my neck to hug back. "You are lovable Rae. You have a house full of people that love you. You have millions of strangers who love you and you have a family in Ohio that loves you unconditionally. You are lovable and one day you'll get the guy who treats you right and keeps you happy and safe." I told her. She let out a deep sigh. "Thank you Jake." She breathed out. "Always." I replied and pulled back so I could kiss her forehead.

"What do you think of a beach day? All of Team 10 together." I suggested. Raegan smiled. "I'd like that." She replied. "Then go get ready. I'll tell everyone." I ordered. She nodded and then went upstairs. I looked after her, still worried. Landon must've really fucked her up. The next time I saw the guy I would let him pay for that.

"Is she okay?" I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at Anthony. I knew he felt for everything he did to her. He wished he could turn back time and undo what he did. I was still hoping that Rae and Tony would find back together some day. 

"I'm not sure." I admitted and stood up. "She needs us right now. All of us." I told him. Anthony nodded. "Get ready. We're going to the beach. Tell everyone please." I told him. Anthony nodded and went around the house, telling people to get read to go to the beach.

I went to my room and I got changed into some trunks and one of my merch shirts. I put my shoes back on and went to my bathroom to grab a towel. Then I grabbed my wallet and phone before going back downstairs. "Hey Jake. Can we borrow some swimming trunks?" Ray asked pointing between him and Justin. "Yeah just go into my closet and take some." I replied. He nodded and they rushed upstairs. The other boys got some attire from Chanthony, Max and the twins.

A few minutes later everyone was gathered around the front door and we all went outside. We separated. Some went into Big Bertha, some into my Tesla. Then we were off to the beach..

-

"Work it girl!" Tessa exclaimed as MaiLinh took some photos of Raegan. Raegan smiled and winked at the brunette. Ever since we had arrived at the beach Rae had been in a better mood. She was smiling now, like genuinely smiling. It somewhat relieved me. It was now my job again to keep her happy after her boyfriend failed her. Of course it was always part of my job but I had to step back when I new man entered her life.

"She'll be okay." Erika told me. She sat between my legs, her back against my bare chest as I leaned back a little, putting my weight on my elbows. "It will maybe take some time but if we all be there for her she'll be okay." She added. I nodded. "Yeah." I agreed.

"I feel bad though." Rik sighed. I looked down at her with confusion. "For what?" I asked. She was playing with some sand in her hand as she thought about how to say what she wanted to. "Rae, Tessa and I used the be so close. After the whole Alissa thing it brought us so close together but then her and Anthony broke up.." She trailed off. "I wasn't even there for her. I feel like me starting to Vlog and being so busy because of it made us kind of drift apart..same with Tessa, just not as bad. I feel bad because I love her, she's a sister to me but I left her hanging when she needed me the most." Erika explained. I sighed. "I think after the break up we all left her hanging. We all didn't realize what it did to her. I was a huge dick but she forgave me. Maybe try to reconnect, with both of them. You guys are our power girls. I'm sure you can fix it. Rae isn't one to hold grudges." I told Erika. "You're right." She nodded, tilting her head up to smile at me. I smiled back and leaned down to peck her lips.

We weren't really sure what Jerika exactly was but we knew that there were definitely feelings. We were just scared to commit. But then again..we were in no rush. As long as we were both happy it didn't matter.

"Come on Rik! Take some pictures with us!" Raegan called, now standing in front of the camera with Tessa. Erika's smile brightened upon hearing that. "I'll be right back." She grinned at me and jogged towards the other two girls to pose for some pictures.

I watched the three with a smile. Then my eyes wandered to the boys joking around at the water. I loved this family no matter what..