Tell Me Why - Anthony Trujillo

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Raegan

I woke up with my head pounding. The sun was hitting my face directly, making the pain worse.

Last night came to my mind but I couldn't remember all of it. The last thing I did remember was performing with Anthony and then starting to drink. I must've been wasted. I couldn't remember half of the night. I hated it. I'd normally never drink this much so why did I do it last night?

With a small groan as I stretched I gave up on thinking about it. I turned over in bed hoping to maybe get another hour of sleep. I wish I wouldn't have done that though. I was met face to face with an all too familiar face. He was still sleeping, small snores leaving his slightly parted mouth.

I was suddenly wide awake and frozen in place. Did we have sex? I looked down at my body and lifted the blanket. Naked. I was naked so we probably did. Oh no no no. This couldn't be real. This had to be a dream or something.

As he started moving around I was scared he'd wake up so I quickly got off the bed, grabbed the white hotel robe from the closet and put it on. I left my room and went next door to the boys' room. I knew their door would be unlocked so I barged in. Only Jake was seen lying in bed, still asleep. I went up to him and shook him awake.

"Rae..let me sleep." He croaked out. "Why didn't you stop me?!" I exclaimed making him groan. He turned to lay on his back and looked at me. His eyes were only half open but I didn't care. "What are you talking about?" He grumbled. When Jake glanced down at what I had on he must've remembered something because next he looked up with a smirk on his face. "You got some?" He asked, wiggling his eyebrows up and down. I groaned, throwing my head back. "Why did you not stop me? Or him?" I asked again. "I tried Rae but when I turned around for five seconds both of you were gone." Jake shrugged. "Oh my god. This is bad. This is so so bad." I sat down at the edge of Jake's bed and put my face in my hands. How could I have been so stupid?

"Hey." Jake spoke up softly as he sat up and placed his hands on my back. "It's okay." He said. "No. It's not okay J. This will ruin everything." I replied. I was so angry at myself for letting it happen. "What is it going to ruin? I mean it was a one time thing right?" Jake asked. "A one time very drunk thing that should've never happened." I sighed, letting my hands fall into my lap.

"Good Morning." My head snapped up to see Anthony coming out of the bathroom, only a towel wrapped around his waist. Any other time I would've swooned over his body but I wasn't this time. "Morning." Jake replied to him. "Is everything okay?" Anthony asked a little confused when he saw my facial expression. "Yeah." I lied. I wasn't sure if he knew. Maybe he didn't. I was hoping he didn't. I knew I shouldn't care if he did know but something inside of me told me he shouldn't know. It wouldn't do any good to our friendship. I just had him back as a friend and I couldn't ruin that.

"I was just seeing if you guys were up so you wouldn't be late for the studio." That was the best excuse I could come up with. "Oh alright." He nodded and glanced around the room. "Does anyone know where Chance is?" He then asked. I gulped down the knot in my throat. "He went with a girl last night." Jake responded to which Tony nodded and went to get dressed.

"I can't go over there and face him." I whispered now, scared Anthony would hear. "I could go over and wake him up." Jake offered. I sighed. I wanted him to do it but I knew I needed to talk to him. Tell him it was a one night stand thing and that I never meant for it to happen. "No. I need to talk to him." I muttered and stood up again to go to my room.

After taking a deep breath I walked inside. He was now awake and on his phone. He looked up when he heard me walk in. "Hey." I greeted awkwardly, pulling the robe tighter around me. "Morning." He replied. Then an uncomfortable silence fell upon us. I was just standing at the foot of the bed, looking around the room. I didn't know what to do. "So..last night.." He spoke up. "Listen..it was a mistake. We were both wasted and didn't know what we were doing. It was a one time thing." I finally told him. "Yeah, I get that. And I totally agree." He replied. A breath of relief left my mouth and I was able to relax a little. Only a little though. "We shouldn't talk to anyone about it. Especially not Anthony." I said. He nodded in agreement. "Do you have feelings for him?" I shook my head at that. "It's just that we just became friends again and I don't want to ruin that." I explained to which he gave a short nod.

"I'm gonna go now." He said and stood up, already dressed. "Bye." I mumbled and watched him walk out of my room. Then I lopped down on my bed. I felt horrible. Why? Why did it have to happen?

I needed to talk to Tessa..

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From: Raegan
To: Baby T 💎

I need to talk to you..
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