Tell Me Why - Anthony Trujillo

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Raegan

Day 5

"You're okay Rae." Logan soothed as he helped me up. It was normal for me to just randomly get blinded by light and then react by slipping since I couldn't see.

"You do know I'm still mad no matter how many times you help me up, right?" I questioned ignoring his statement which was definitely not true. "I know I fucked up Rae but please forgive me." he pleaded. "I can't just forgive you like that Lo, I will just not now." I told him.

Logan had been stupid enough to post a vlog of him at the suicide forest and making a joke about a dead body. To say I was furious was an understatement. 

"Lo do something other than take a break, please." I pleaded. He raised an eyebrow in confusion. "Do something for the cause of suicide prevention, just please don't leave that image of you branded in my mind." I continued.

His eyes softened. "I will Rae. I will." he promised, I nodded as a reply and laid my head on the railing of the sofa. We were currently at his house, and I drove over as soon as I heard what happened. 

Notifications were blowing up my phone, some of my fans liking pictures, others tagging me in screenshots of what Logan had done in Japan, and most of fans noting that Logan and I were close friends, and he had gone to the Suicide Forest and fucked up, the day after I released a song with Logic and Khalid about suicide. 

"I'm gonna go home." I muttered. My room was currently a mess as I was arranging the gifts and USB's that I made for everyone. "Rae." Logan exclaimed as I lifted my face up. "Your nose is bleeding really bad." he pointed out. 

I wiped my nose with the back of my hand and saw it was covered in bright red liquid. I sighed and went to the bathroom, washing it off.

When I got out Logan instantly bombarded me with questions along the lines of 'are you okay?' and I nodded in response. "I'll be fine Lo. I'm a big girl." and with that I hugged him and left.

I got back home to find the house in complete chaos, as usual. "Raegan!" I heard someone shout from the railing, I looked up and saw my dear, dear cousin. Roman Atwood. I laughed and went up the stairs and embraced him. "What are you doing here? Where are the kids and Brittney?" I asked pulling away. 

"They're at the hotel, we came to check up on you." he told me. "Thanks Ro, but next time stay home, will ya." I chuckled. He shook his head and flipped me off. "You should visit tomorrow though, Cora's down with the flu, and I don't need you getting worse." he told me. I nodded not wanting to argue.

"Tess!" I called. Instantly I heard footsteps coming toward my room, which I left to after Roman's conversation with me. "Hey babe!" she exclaimed as she opened the doors. I waved and beckoned for her to come in. Obliging she looked around at the mess.

"I know. But I need your help." I told her. "Sure what's up?" she replied. "I bought a shitload of USBs and gifts, okay? After I'm done with them, they'll be in my closet, once I'm..... you know, you have to make sure everyone gets them, okay?" I explained. 

She looked at me with sadness in her eyes. She nodded and embraced me. I hugged back without hesitation. "You be good okay." I told her as I pulled away. "I promise." her voice broke. She held back a sob and I hugged her again. 

"Rae. I need to tell you something." she admitted. "About a week ago, I started to get this weird feeling around one of the girls in my dance group while we were rehearsing for the 2018 RDMA's. I couldn't explain it. Then I started to hang around the other girls to see if the same happens." she explained while fiddling with her fingers and looking down. 

I lifted her head up and made her look at me. "I think I might be bi." she told me whole tearing up. I crushed her into an even tighter hug.

"I don't know though, and I wanna know if I am, because it's honestly bugging me." she confessed. "Can I try Rae?" she asked hesitantly. "I just wanna do it on somebody I trust, and I don't want Erika because she might expose me and I really don't need that, even though you're like my older sister, and I trust you like hell, and my-" she rambled before I cut her off.

"Tess, try, honestly I'm proud to be the first person you came out to and want to try on." I told her smiling. I was happy for her, it's not easy though, she's extremely strong, and I get that she wanted to try it on me. I wasn't going to let that get in the way of our relationship though.

Her eyes twinkled before her hands found their way to either side of my face and she pulled me closer. Her lips connected with mine, and honestly for a second, I questioned my sexuality, but there was person that was always in my mind, which made me remember that I'm not bisexual or lesbian. 

Neither of us pulled away and just went on with whatever was happening, I felt happy for some odd reason, maybe that gap of loneliness haunting me was filled for the moment. 

After about five minutes we pulled away. "So?" I questioned. "Definitely bi." She confirmed. She looked happy with her results. "Thank you Rae." she pecked my lips before running out, which left me in confusion.

"Anything for you."

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Hi ppl! So um..... yeah, I just felt like a topic like the LGBTQ+ community is neglected and though eh why not, however, if I feel like the story won't grow on this event, I will delete it.