Tell Me Why - Anthony Trujillo

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Raegan

When I got out of bed the next morning I still felt horrible. I just couldn't handle the fact that I lost three of my friends just because I had to get drunk. Tessa hated me, as did Anthony and I couldn't even look at Chance. I just wished I could forget about everything.

"Rae?" It was Kade. He had just come back from Seattle after spending a few days with McKenzie. "Hey." I greeted him with a hug after getting out of bed. "How are you?" He asked. "Good." I lied. I didn't want to seem like I wanted all comfort and attention on me. "And you?" I quickly added. "I'm great but I know for certain you're not good." He told me. I sighed. "Does everyone in this damn house know?" I grumbled. "Kind of, yes." Kade replied.

"I don't wanna talk about it." I mumbled, walking to my closet to get an outfit out for the day. "Tessa is pretty upset." Kade mentioned. I closed my eyes and let out a sigh. "I'm aware." I replied. It was a sensitive subject, it made me emotional just because I hurt so many people with what I did and that sucked. "You should maybe talk to her.." He trailed off. "I tried Kade."I said, grabbing some jeans and a crop top. "Try harder." I spun around to face him. "I can't even remember it happening! All I know is that I woke up next to him naked. I don't know what to tell her! A sorry won't cut it. I slept with the guy she still has feelings for, how can she even forgive me?" I snapped at him. "You haven't tried hard enough." He repeated. "Get out Kade. Please. I'm sorry but that is the last thing I need to hear right now." I told him. "You hated Anthony cheating on you. How do you think they feel now?" I gaped at Kade's words. Was he serious? "Nobody was cheated on. Of course it was horrible what I did but you have no idea Kade how I feel either. If you're here to only tell me how bad of a person I am you can leave." I was being rude but I thought Kade would be neutral and not take any sides. I guess I was wrong..

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I had been in meetings almost all day and when I got home the house was pretty silent. I was about to open my mouth to call out for someone until I heard my name being said from the kitchen.

"I can't even look at Rae right now." That was Tessa's voice. "I can't believe she did that." That was Erika. "She knew how I felt. She's like a sister to me. I looked up to her but it all changed in a span a few hours. I just wished we wouldn't live in the same house." Tessa said. "I always knew the kindness was all an act and she's actually a backstabbing hoe." I couldn't believe the words I heard coming out of Erika's mouth. I have known the girl for over a year and we were best friends , family..she can't tell me she hated me all this time? That hurt.

I decided to walk there and let them know I heard. "Good to know that is how you felt about me all this time." I said in a calm voice. The girls looked shocked. "Rae-" I cut Erika off. "I think I heard enough." I told her and then went upstairs. I heard the little taps of Apollo's and Shep's paws following behind me as I climbed the stairs.

My life was going downhill and I didn't know how to stop it. Everything seemed to be going wrong in the last few months. First Landon, then Olivia dying , then Preston's death, then the thing with Chance and then Erika...It was getting too much to handle.

I locked my door and flopped down on my bed face first. I will not cry. I will not let this tear me down. You are stronger than this. I repeated those words over and over again in my head. Stars can't shine without the dark is what my mother always used to say after she had read that somewhere. It was true but pulling through the dark times could be difficult...

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Raegan Jesson
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I guess it's right what they say about u 🤷‍♀️

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Erika Costell
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I guess it was all an act 🤷‍♀️

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