Summer Snow ~First Love~ (DROPPED)

Chap. 5 - First Love?

Rosalinda's POV

It was a childish love. It was my first love.

That person left for a place far away. I don't know where he lives now. Winter passed ending one love.. and a new season arrived. There is a man in my heart. He, too, now lives in a place far away.

I met Ryan-san during my third year of junior high. My parents decided to hire a home tutor since my grades weren't improving.

"He's the son of an acquaintance; he's a student of a university. Seems an excellent person so I asked him" My mother would lively talk about these topics even if she normally looked indifferent about everything.

"Are you sure about it?" I coldly asked while serving coffee.

I was experienced in doing it as my mother would want to drink coffee as soon as she came back home from work.

"All students want an allowance, right? We are offering him a salary so his parents were happy."

"I see..." I wasn't sure if it was the student who wanted the allowance or his parents. But it didn't change the fact that I would start receiving private lessons.

Both my parents worked and they would often come back late. As an only child I could spend money freely and I lived in comfort.

To be honest, my life spent eating heated food bought outside or pre-made felt empty, and I vaguely contemplated the thought of leaving this house. I had few friends. Rather, I barely had any. I forced myself to laugh with everyone else at school, but it wasn't my real self. I wanted to discuss more difficult topics, but I felt everyone would leave me if I did, so I never spoke up. Still I was happy about the home tutor. I thought that maybe I could talk of what I wanted with a university student.. and maybe that sense of alienation would soften.

"I'm Tamura Ryan. Nice to meet you." I was confused looking at Ryan softly smiling. I imagined him to be an adult man like my teachers at school. But he was younger looking and easier to approach.

"N-nice to meet you, teacher."

"I'm not used to be called like that, please call me Ryan." He was a bit embarrassed as that probably was his first time home tutoring.

"Ok Ryan."

"Good. So, you need help with English and Math, right? They are my specialty so leave it to me." My heart skipped a beat at his smile.

I was just a kid to his eyes, but he made me fluster like a woman.

First love?

I didn't feel anything similar during elementary school. And junior high... I constantly thought the guys were too immature for their age. It was the first time I felt that painful feeling being conscious of the other sex. There is no doubt that it was my first love.