better written than thoughts//one-shots//discontinued

[ff] Dear diary,

Dear diary,
kim minseok; exo

17/01/2018

Dear diary,

It's been a while hasn't it? The last entry was ten years ago, when I was seven.

I found you yesterday, up in the attic. For some reason it was in the box with Mom's old stuff. The movers must've thought it was hers. It was hers anyways. I read through it all.

Shall we catch up?

I'm seventeen, I'm in high school now, senior year. Dad remarried when I was nine. She's a nice lady, a bit of a weirdo, but in a good way. We moved out when I was eight. Dad couldn't handle being in the same house mom used to be in when she...you know. Caleb is in college now! Well, he's been in college for a while. He's in his last year. Oh, and he has a girlfriend, she's a bit of a ...(expletive). I don't like her much. No one really does. Except for Caleb.

Why did I start writing this again? Oh yeah. I need to vent.

There's this guy in my school. He was a jackass to everyone. Like every single human in our school. So that excludes Mean Mary.

So he was a jackass, now he's a bit lonely. I thought him and Mary were close but something happened at a party and now they hate each other. She constantly gets her lackeys and her new boyfriend's friends to bully him.

I want to help him. I really really do. But he was always mean to me. Physically and emotionally. It's like a part of me says to help him and the other part says he deserves it. I should help him, right? Because I should be the better person? Yeah because I should be the better person, the bigger better person.

Okay bye now. I have to go to bed.

PS. God I sound like six year old me!!

18/01/2018

Dear diary,

I helped him. I regretted it. He said

"You're doing this for your own personal gain. You don't want to help me."

He called me selfish and proud. A fake hero.

Well, he's stupid. I helped him and he didn't even thank me! Just insulted me.

He's so...ugh. I hate him. I won't help him the next time.

I did NOT do it for personal gain. That idiot.

Okay bye now.

21/02/2018

Dear diary,

Sorry I didn't write for a while. I had way too much homework.

Yeah I talked to him again. The guy. I should tell you his name- Xiumin. We talked for a while, small talk. He's Asian, came to the States because of his dad's business. He's pretty rich. He's into singing, dancing, soccer. But he hasn't joined the team though? He said it's because he doesn't like the Coach. No one really likes Coach Blanchard.

I asked him what happened to him and Mary at the party, he said it's because he rejected her feelings for him.

Mean Fucking Mary.

I'm sorry I swore.

I'm going now.

14/02/2018

Dear diary,

Xiumin went missing. I don't know where. He called me last night and he was angry saying Mary ruined his life. He said he's not a coward so he won't think about...suicide. But he's missing.

I told the police.

Help.

-fin-

a/n. The last entry is in italics. The character's handwriting becomes cursive and looks like it's written in italics when she writes fast. there's a time interval between the italics and regular type. there's no sequel to this ;)