Chris Chambers imagine.
My legs were tired and I felt as if my eyes were sweating because of the heat. We had been walking for too long and it was all to find some dead kid that had been hit by a train a mile ahead. I held a long stick at the ground, dragging it against the dirt as we walked in the pathway of the tall trees.
Everyone had been quiet. Everyone except Teddy. Teddy was going on proudly about how he cussed out this old man, but Chris couldn't care less. We all couldn't care less because we were exhausted and our feet ached.
The only thing I could think about was finding the body and going home.
Teddy was loud, and he talked fast and his voice seemed so obnoxious when he went on and on to Chris. We all wanted him to shut up, but everyone was scared to talk. Until I realized I couldn't take it anymore,
"God damnit, Teddy would you shut your trap for once in your life?!!" I say, drawing everyone's eyes on me.
Teddy glared at me. Teddy and I, despised each other. I couldn't stand him and he couldn't stand me.
"...Why don't you make me, Y/L/N?"
An anger erupts in me, but I decide to close my mouth for now as I shove past Teddy.
"You know you ain't better than the rest of us, Y/n."
I turn around slowly, a confused glare in my eye, "I never said I was better." I look at him, wishing I could rip him to shreds.
Vern grows nervous as he says, "C'mon guys, let's just keep walking-"
"Shut it Vern!" Teddy interrupts roughly, keeping his eyes on mine.
"Why don't you admit it Y/n...you ain't tougher than me."
I remember being so bothered when he said that. I remember saying something I shouldn't have.
I gave him the most sternest look, and used the most roughest tone,
"At least I don't have a looney for a father..."
Everyone's eyes seemed to widen, even Teddy's, and Vern sort of gasped.
I wanted to take it back, I really did. It was all out of crankiness.
"What did you say?!"
I wipe my mouth slowly as he keeps his hard, steady tone with me.
"You heard me Duchamp...that old bastard was right...your father... he's a looney." I tell him slowly.
I could tell Teddy's heart was crumbling inside his chest and his face a blazing red. At that moment I was too frustrated to care, but at the same time I didn't mean it.
It was silent. You could only hear the singing of birds and the rustling of squirrels, but you couldn't even hear the breath coming from five kids standing still in the middle of no where.
Then, Teddy took a deep sigh, his brown eyes darken as he kicks a rock pass me.
"Yeah, well at least I'm not cold and stubborn like you...and I actually care about people and I'm not a selfish slob like you, Y/n."
My heart cracks and I wanna cry now, even though I know it's my fault, I still feel like I'm gonna bawl.
Chris looks at me, a small gleam in his eye as he approaches Teddy,
"Teddy, c'mon man..." He throws Chris's hand off of him, "Stay out of it, Chambers." He refocuses on me, madder than ever and I don't blame him.
"At least I'm not dead inside."
"Teddy let it go, let's just go man!" Chris goes once again, but Teddy's eyes are still dawning on me.
"Yeah, whatever...you know if you wasn't a girl, I'd bash your head in...fucking lesbo." He mumbles, but it's still loud enough for me to hear.
My head hangs low and thick, hot tears stream down my cheeks and I watch them fall to the ground.
I stand there, crying and wishing I was dead somewhere. I look up slowly only to see them staring at me. At this point I wasn't thinking. At this point I decided it'd be a lot better if I just turned around and gone home.
I walk past them, crossing eyes with Teddy as I start my way back. Before I could finish my footsteps home, Chris shouted,
"Wait, Y/n where are you going?!" I ignored him, continuing my focus ahead.
I walk along the middle of the path, this time with my head hanging down. Chris catches up with me leaving behind Gordie, Teddy, and Vern.
"Where the hell do you think you're going?"
I watch the dirt kick up against my shoes as I walk. I hesitate, "I'm going home. I don't deserve you guys..." I say slowly.
"Awe, don't be that way! Teddy doesn't know what he's talking about...and we know you didn't mean it."
A small pain twist in me and I wanna turn back, but something in my head tells me I'm not good enough and that I should just go home and cry into my pillow.
"Forget it Chris."
I glance up at him, and at that moment there was a wincing pain in his beautiful blue eyes and I couldn't stop staring. Suddenly we stop in our tracks and he grabs my wrists lightly. "Hey, I don't think you're cold...and stubborn. I don't think you're dead inside and I damn sure don't think you're a lesbian."
His eyes are light on mine and I realize that Chris was a good guy, and I didn't deserve him. I wanted him, but I couldn't have him.
"Really?" I ask him, standing under his nose and glancing at his plump, pink lips.
Chris stares at me, wiping away those wet tears under my eyes,
"Really..."
I feel him leaning in closer and closer, until his lips touch mine. When our faces part, our eyes share the same gleam that only we can feel. I wanna kiss him some more.
He places his palms on my shoulders, staring down at me.
"Listen, can we just turn back around? I promise, if Teddy hurts you, I'll hurt him. Okay? But, you know he didn't mean it, right?"
I nod steadily, keeping my eyes on his.
"Yeah. I'm sorry, Chris."
We turn around, and Chris holds his arm around me, "Don't be sorry...you know I love you right?"
I smile warmly for the first time,
"Yeah, I love you too Chris."
Hello, it's 2018 and I'm shook already. Hope you enjoyed this and more updates to come:-)
