Love And War ♡ {ON HOLD}

and it kills me

Ty'ainna
My body was completely frozen.
Everything around me began to fade out. I honestly didn't know if I was going to stay conscious or not.
"Pussy ass nigga," Q spat.
That snapped me out of my state and I slapped him.
I slapped the shit out of him.
"Why in the hell did you do that," I said through tears. Now on my knees and in front of Chresanto.
Suddenly, I was yanked back up by my hair and the bloody knife was put to my throat.
"Listen, bitch. This fuck nigga was in the way of us. Now, he is going to fucking bleed till his death and you aren't going to do a thing about it. Got it."
I didn't respond. I couldn't.
Despite the fact me and Chresanto have a bipolar relationship, I would never wish for him to die especially because of me.
Q dug the knife deeper into my neck splitting the skin. "Got it!?" I merely nodded my head. "Good," he kissed my cheek then continued. "I'm going to go dispose of this shit. Stay here bae or I will fucking find you and slaughter you." The last part was said through gritted teeth.
He gave me one last stare and kicked Chresanto to his car.
I shut my door and let out all the emotions that have been built up.
Anger. Exhaustion. Betrayal. Confusion. Pain...
Just straight up pain.
Q basically fucked my life up, again, within two hours.
"Fuck. How long can I go on like this?"
I looked over at the kitchen and saw the knife set.
I walked over to it and reconsidered.
I'd rather feel numb then physical pain. I thought.
My depressed state walked into the bathroom and saw painkillers sitting on the counter from when I last had a headache.
Right before I was about to pop a few, a picture of a bright, bubbly, healthy baby girl appeared in my head...
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Finaaaly, I updated.
A really shitty one, but oh well.
I've lost all interest in this story, to be honest, but I don't want to just completely end it in the middle of it so, the end is coming.
Now, I've just been writing. Don't know we're this is going to go. Good or bad ending. But I hope to be done with this before July.
I'm just guessing about 3 more chapters?
Some one will die is all I know. Who I want to is a mystery to both you and me but just prepare..
xo .