Taped Broken Heart

Chapter 12 (the truth)

Bethany's POV

Don't faint, don't faint. oh Wait! Don't throw up either; but really DO NOT FAINT.

"Ummmm, You can start." I say with a very shaky breath.

"Okay well I guess yesterday I saw you looking out your window. You looked sad like you wanted to go to the ocean, like you wanted to be the ocean. I know that's strange but it's what I felt like you were feeling.

I saw Jason come into your room and then I saw you freeze with fear but I guess I thought that was instinct." he says "I saw you start to cry and him just standing there not caring. Then I see him go to you so I decide to go to sleep until I hear a loud crash."

His fists tightens as he flares his nose trying to hold in his anger. It's obvious he is having a hard time as he looks like he wants to kill someone and I'm scared that it might be me he hurts. He closes his eyes really tight as he says the next thing and it makes me hold my breath.

"Bethany next thing I know I see you on the ground and then you get up with blood all over you combined with the glass that's stuck in your hair. I see him grab you and then I run. I run to your house but what haunts me is that I could hear your cries and pleads from outside. He wouldn't stop so I had to do something so I rang the bell and I lied so that he would stop." he finally opens his eyes.

He looks at me wondering how I will react but I can't. I can't breath I just tear up. I can't believe someone would do that for me, help. I'm trying to hold back my tears, but suddenly it's become very hard for me.

"You...You did that for me?" I say choking up on my tears.

"Of course Bethany! He, he was going to hurt you in worse ways than you should be. I'm so sorry I never saw it before. I'm sorry I couldn't help sooner." he says coming to me and bringing me into  his embrace.

how can he stand to even touch me. I'm damaged goods, I'm damaged goods. Even though I don't deserve this kindness I like it.
after a few minutes of trying to control my breathing and him, his anger, we calm down. When we finally step away I go and sit on his bed. Looking down at my hands I feel the bed shift and I take a deep breath. This is it, someone will know your biggest secret Bethany.

"It started when I was little kind of. When my dad was still alive Jason and him were best friends. He was always kind to me making me laugh and bringing me gifts. He was so generous and I considered him one of my uncles you could say. Then one day he finds out that my dad was going to take me away from my mom who never loved me.

In fact my mother hated me, still hates me actually. Always saying I ruined her life and that I should have never been born. She hated the fact that my dad loved me so much and that I took him away from her. She never wanted me but he begged her for me and so I was born.

Anyways Jason and my mother were
apparently having an affair and wanted me to stay with them for some reason. One night I woke up to my mom and dad fighting and Jason coming in. their arguing woke me up so I went to the stairs to see what was going on." I start to cry again but I cry a lot this time.

My silent tears continue to flow down my face as I continue to speak again.

"They killed him Oscar in front of me and blamed me for it. That's not it though because I believed them. All I did, all I could do was scream for daddy. I didn't go to him and help, I just stood there."

"Bethany that is not your fault at all. Don't you dare ever blame yourself for what they did. That is not okay for you to do that to yourself. You were so little." he says with a stern voice trying to make me understand.