Love.mp3: Track 2

Let it Flow

I was walking through the corridors since I have to bring some books to study, I still can't get it out of my mind.

How can Ria not be my second love?

Thanks to them, I got over quickly to the emptiness part...

Though I'm starting to doubt if I really have loved Ria in the first place.

Then, avoiding Iza in the first place would have been stupid, since I loved her.

So...I must have loved Ria since I chose her more than Iza.

But...I did it for her in the first place because--

"Aaaarghh!!!" I exclaimed and banged my head on the lockers in frustration.

F*CKING. bang.

LOVE. bang.

Triangles. bang.

I started going home, before I start talking to myself again. The school is deserted in this tie of the day, so I took my time in going home.

"Situations like this, sometimes needs to stop using this..." He pointed at my temple.

"And start using that..." He pointed at my chest.

"Let things flow...Trust your heart...Listen; like music."

That was what he said before I went back here.

What he was asking m to do is hard...for me.

I'm a person who thinks before he leaps...or better yet, tries to wiggle out a better solution rather than leaping. I try to think all angles and try to do it with the best possible solution.

Let things flow? That's just leaping all over again. A leap of faith. Trusting that things would get better somehow.

I grabbed my stuff and the sound of the locker's door echoed through the hallways.

Jeez, I need to get out of here...I'm not staying long enough to see if the story about those haunted stock room is true.

I walked quickly and heard a faint moan.

I looked and found that a few student were still staying in school...And were particularly VERY busy.

They were very intent in kissing each other. Their arms encircling each other very tightly and I could hear each of their soft moans. The kissing went urgent and the boy's hand started to travel elsewhere. The girl's face was buried in the boy's neck but when she raised her head, the look on her face was pure surprise.

"LUIS?!"

It actually took me a moment to register her name.

"Hi, Ria."

They immediately stopped what they were doing and looked at me like I was some cop who caught them doing something illegal.

"Luis,...I-I can e-explain." Ria stammered.

I looked at the guy.

Seems like a decent looking person.

"Man, it's not what you think..." He explained.

You know, this situation has a lot of emotion flowing out of it.

And as ridiculous as it sounds, I'm not even fazed at what they were doing. And despite of the current situation I'm in...

I've never been so f*cking happy in my entire life.

I raised my hand slowly so I can speak.

"It's okay..." I said.

I turned to Ria. "I'm not giving you the attention you needed and I don't think that I'm the right person to give that to you."

"Luis...Don't say that." Ria mumbled.

Let things flow...

"Ria, I love you...It's just that, I love someone else more than you."

"Iza?" She asked.

I nodded.

Ria gave a humorless laugh. "Why am I not surprised?"

I turned to the guy.

"Hey...take care of her." I said.

He opened his mouth like he was about to say something but he just nodded.

"I will..."

Then I walked away.

"Luis!" Ria called.

 I turned to her and she unclasped her necklace that I gave her.

"Here...Iza should be the one wearing this." She said.

I shook my head and smiled.

"That's our memories. It's yours to throw it away or keep it...I'll just create my own memories with her."

Ria seemed at lost at what I said. (Don't worry...neither do I)

I was driving home, wondering why I'd just threw out a good relationship.

I never lied to Ria...I did love her.

I just love Iza more.

It's not who comes second or who comes first...it's who you love more.

Suddenly, the 'second-love' quote becomes so clear to me.

I'm going against my nature here.

The lonely, shy, low self esteem with the depth of marianas trench and ignored boy would fight for the girl he loves.

The idea was ridiculous even to me. It was those kind of lines you would hear in those sappy love songs.

I got home but my mind was still on hyperdrive. Thinking.

If I want Iza back, I have to fight for her...I should plan something crazy again...

Or maybe I could contact MC and his band, again?

Or maybe I should ask Vanessa and Napoleon?

Or maybe I should do it alone?