It Is What It Is

Chapter 15

     Days, weeks, and months passed by, some faster than others. Soon, Finley was 8 months pregnant. It was late December when we decided to have her baby shower. We invited all her girlfriends, and all her female family. We were announcing the name we chose today. I wasn't allowed to arrive till halfway through the party, which I thought kind of sucked, but I was okay with. When I finally did arrive, I received a lot of hugs and handshakes from a lot of women I didn't know. Then, it was time to announce the name. We had gotten the babies name printed onto a roll out blind and we were going to pull a rope when we announced it. "Is everybody ready?" Finley's mom, Sherry, asked. Everyone cheered. I let Finley pull the rope. The banner revealed "Walker Ray Woods" to the guests. They cheered. Walker was Finley's grandfathers name. Her grandfather passed away from cancer last year. Ray was my idea. My mother's name was Rayanna. It was weird seeing the name of my son. I started to feel nervous again. What if I'm not good enough. The party was quickly over and I stayed to help clean up. I helped load all the gifts into the back of Sherry's van, and they took me home. When I arrived home, I kissed Finley, and went into my house. That's when I saw my dad sitting with James Martin. My dad looked pissed. "What's going on?" I asked. James laughed, "I came over for my pot money." I shook my head, "I told you I'm not giving you any." James sighed, "whatever Parker." With that, he ran out the door. My dad gave me a dirty look, "you haven't smoked anything have you." I sighed. "Once, when the stuff happened with Meghan." My dad shook his head, "I'm disappointed. Just don't do it again." I nodded, "I know." I ran upstairs and took a shower and went to bed. I lay awake that night thinking. One month till Walkers here. Will I ever be ready to be a dad? Finally, I drifted off to sleep.