My Silent Scream....(personal Poems)

Anxiety.

Im breathing, hearts beating, and im fully functioning,  is that proof that im not yet dead?I inhale my own poison,I need to survive in this world, but it stops me from living.
My lips curl up more often, till my cheeks hurt, but im not smiling. My thoughts are laughing and taunting me, but then they'll hold me as i cry. Im completely alone, but i cant get time to myself . I'm too busy working hard at making sure, they don't feel alone.My laughs are hollow, imaginary hearts I tell myself that still exist in the world.My brain and mouth are allies, who battles non-stop,im yet to see a war.The dark room I was in, I finally switched the light on somehow, my eyes are slowly melting from the brightness. I can hear the light as my ears vibrate and they scream in agony.My hand is being held or possibly chained, the knowledge of by who is lacked, its the devil, God, or the warmth from the torturous light.I can't turn it off.